suhaida's petty blog

The starting.

2012-01-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

So, I Start my wedding planning with my own draft.

Hell yeah. STARt saVING now.

Moto : No Starving No saving. @_@

Sekarang baru nak sedar kan.

Masih blur tak nampak jalan.

The Checklist dan di kurungkan dalam kurungan itu bajet. Bajet burst bro. ~~

Sebarang bajet diletakkan jangan nak zoom in zoom out bebel pula, bajet aja dong.

Soalan kepada yang berpengalaman.

APA YANG KORANG BUAT EKCELI SETIAP BULAN.

MANA DULU EKCELICOWLI.?

MANA TEMPAT NYA? MANA MURAH NYA? GI MANA GI MANA?
MAKASIH BUK.

Dinner ZZzzzz

2012-01-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

7 Jan 2012 - Pharmacy Night at my place.

It was the simplest prepation i made for dinner compared to dinner during university time. Recycle and recycle. And glad i did that. Masa nak dinner ala rindu nya kawan-kawan uni, dinner la time paling best kot. dengan housemate. Tapi dinner tempat kerja biasa-biasa je. ZzzzZZzzz..

Simple tak simple, tak pandai make up sdr, mesti lah panggil freelance MUA. Ok la the price, make up 80, hair do 40. Datang rumah lagi. Ramah habes. Make up : Bobby Brown, Mac, Stage, Kroyalan.

Aku da cakap awal-awal dah, jangan tebal sangat, (taknak macam masa tunang tuh). So puas hati la. Lila kata ok, then ok lah. Huhu.

Make up tunang tu, it meant for amek gambar actually. Untuk lawan lampu kuning kat pelamin. So bila amek kat bilik over lah muka I. Tak suka da make up tu. Lagi lagi pergi kerja orang kutuk-kutuk, tak suka lepas orang kutuk la. Since tunang banyak je kecik hati dengan orang tempat kerja,

Ejek hantu la, make up over lah,

ada sorang ni datang-datang:

"Make up ko over k, tunang je pon"

"Biar lah"

"Sape make up?"

"Bridal"

"Perempuan?"

"Ha'a"

"Patot tak cantik"

Lepastu terus menyampah nye tengok gambar tunang.

So masa make up, da cakap dah ngan akak meg ni, KAK MAKE UP NATURAL JE, SAYA DA FOBIA MAKE UP TEBAL-TEBAL NI.

Ni foto-foto dinner.

Pharmacist and Pharmacist Assistant

Shafiq, Syaza, me, Amirul
Last nite for them before they registered at KK serendah and Hospital Serdang

With Sandeep my PRP-time-friend.

with Hsin Mei, leaving this 19th Jan, im going to take over.

Sama je gaya aku
With Farah the PPF yang suka ketawa.

With my fiance.

Masa dapat cabutan bertuah, saya pas kat oko untuk amek hadiah, ada ke patot MC tu kata, memperkenalkan HUSBAND SUHAIDA. cam Zzzzz. Apakah salah maklumat mereka-mereka ini.

Pas tunang chinese-chinese panggil I puan. I cakap I engage je la! tapi still tanya, so u pindah rumah ke? duduk dengan siapa sekarang? nak balek masak untuk abang ke? LOL. apakah mereka ni. Mungkin tu culture diorang kot pas engage. Tak tau.

After the dinner, call Alila dan lets go makan durian kat SS2 pada pukul 12.30 malam. Buang fake eyelashes je, da ok kot. LOL. tak over kan g makan durian cani. hehe.

Dua orang hantu durian. I xkena bayar sebab makan 4 ulas je. pandai Lila tawar menawar ye.

Last stop was indomee. Seme ni salah perut Alilaa!

Huhu. K bye. Nite.

To friends : Goodluck in finding new happiness at new place. Mula-mula je tak suka. Lama-lama mesti sayang tempat kerja tu. Tapi tak mo gossip2 lagi k. tak sihat. HUHU. K nite.

Let's just not talk about it, but be it.

2012-01-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

Badan kurus, hidung kempis, perut kempis.

Tu la teknik yang diamalkan oleh pembuncit-pembuncit kajang.

Aku tak nak aku sorang. Whateva.

So, my azam 2012 adalah mendapatkan perut yang kecil. Bukan balloon size. 9 bulan pregnant xkuar-kuar agi baby lemas ahh.

Nak masuk gym ramai pembangkang. Semua suka tengok perut su comel, cam berseri2 mengandungkan lemak tepu.

Tak pelah su akan exercise dari rumah je.

Thanx kepada pendonlod video-video work out.

AIM (Priority : High)

*menjadi Suhaida Kerrtu*

Wah bukan semua suhaida dah test. beberapa je dah. kena discipline week by week lah. Jangan pemalas Suhaida. "Beautiful face comes with beautiful body" :) Ada unsur perasantan ke disitu?
Pape pun,Go Go!!

Juling Michael vs Jillian Michael.

Selepas 6 minggu. Perut Hilang, ngan orang-orang hilang. Kembali semula apabila perut tersepit pintu.

AIM 2 (Priority : High jugak)

Menampal gambar chef riz di dinding dapor.
*tangan dibahu, mata keatas*

Peserta semuaaaa!
zzzzzzzZZZz...

Semoga beisi penuh 2 aktiviti ni smpai bila-bila, and you'll be great, Su.

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Which part?

2012-01-03T02:22:00.001+08:00

Me: Bestnya baca blog zahiril adzim. Sweet je, xjiwang tapi lembut and romantik. Best lah kalau partner camtu! Ala.. Pmpn seronok la camtu... K saya da bagi link kat whatsapp. bye!

Beberapa minute kemudian.

Oko: Da baca

Me: sweet kann??? Bukan part atas, bawah2.

Oko: Em tapi xtau part mana yang sweet.

Zzzzzz.... (muka Zzzz adalah seperti dibawah) So guy! (sounds better than so gay). LOL.

Nitey nitey.

2011-12-20T06:00:00.001+08:00

Camwhore disubuh hari. Supernite lagi.

Hebat suhaida, tak tido pon supernite malam ni.

Mesti la peneman yang tido. Calm nite call diselangi bunyi cengkerik, eh dengkuran. Pendengkuran berlaku dengan dasyat nye, sampai ke kaunter lagi. Tapi xpe la. xmau kejut la. kalau patient tanya, cakap la bunyi kipas ke blender ke apa ke.. kan?

Worry,no.

2011-12-12T15:11:00.000+08:00

Gambar diambil sekitar 5 pagi, di pharmacy Emergency. Supernight call. It was Friday, my Man accompany me from 1am to 8 am.

"Ambik kan novel saya, saya lupa bawak"

"Takpe, takpe, saya teman awak kerja, saya borak je ngan awak"

Sampai, makan-makan, dia bukak lappy, saya dispense ubat, pusing balik, selamat laptop bawah bantal. Pfft. Hehe. Anyway, thanx teman saya supernight. Thanx for the weekend, thanx for staying, most important thing.

Waterfalling.

2011-12-12T14:03:00.000+08:00

Sunday, 11 Dec 2011, Sungai Gabai.

30 minutes from the house.

Went with Alila & Oko.

Wani, Mazidah and the guy reached earlier setting up the things.

The idea was fun. But, no escalator nor lift to reach the place. Blergh. Why malaysia like this?

Ok fine, why Malaysian like this?

Penat kaki saya panjat tangga demi tangga tu, siap ada bantuan tolak dari belakang.

Ada hapus dosa tak setiap tangga membunuh yang kita panjat tu? ok choi.

Best lah diorang ni. Lengkap semua barang. Mesti Pengakap ni masa sekolah-sekolah ni. @_@. Lagi-lagi yang rambut panjang tu. Yang Cekak pinggang tu mesti PKBM dulu masa high school. Gaya Kak long dhil Sungai Gabai tau.

Went back at 6 pm. After an incident that memutuskan nafsu penerjun-penerjun Malaysia, Sungai Gabai untuk meneruskan aktiviti.

Stopped at Durian Stall, untuk memuaskan tekak Alila & Oko. (Hantu durian).

Now, rumah bau LMS. (Deep Rub). Bangun badan Kejung. AAAGHHH.

Oko, 2011

2011-12-04T01:55:00.001+08:00

"i know that you're trying but you're still lying"-Oko, 2011

Awak scha ni cantikkan, bestnye kalau saya cantik cam dia.

"xmacam scha pon da kemana, klw jadi cam scha tah kemana-kemana" Oko, 2011

With Ong Kim Ong/Swee (OKO/OKS) selepas digantung permainan. muka tension disitu.

Eh hensem nye player ni!

"eh awak ni gatal kan? Cukup2 la tu, sudah2 la.. Blablalala"-Oko,2011.

Dlm hati: eh player football je pon, dalam tv. Sedih gila aku kena bebel panjang. Minat thamilarasu je la camni. Baru betol pandang bakat dan hati.

Precious Young.

2011-10-15T15:17:00.001+08:00

Life has been treating me so well lately. Friends remain and gaining.

They are my Indulgence.

Oh on 6th October, the dentist was graduating. Congrate Doc!

Sorry that we didnt manage to go there. =(

And the weekend, the 4 BFF were cooking, making NASI AYAM and trifle. ALL DELICIOUS.

Even i didnt help much.

But I did help eating together.

There the grown up girls in the kitchen & the delicious food.

And for the entertainment, as usual, we dont go clubbing, only karaokeing. Mum, no worry. We are a bunch of good girl. =)

And now, for the working life.

People change, some friend drop out because of the attitude. OUCH. Mean you, mean me.

And I became close to my other colleague.

The newcomer, the floating. FRP PRP all blend in together.

I had so much fun at work.

Lately, we always go back home late in the evening, lepaking. Its like, the student life. Where you have all the friend at your age, understand ur style and joke, teasing, pranking. I cant stop laughing.

Yesterday, when i hv my break after lunch call, I was resting at Shantini's room. I was "kantoi" at something. I laughed quite loud. And Farah came, and ask

"Su ketawa apa tadi, Puan Z (KPF) ada kat kaunter tadi, sampai depan suara su, puan Z tanya Siapa tu ketawa,. macam suara SYUHADA. Dia xkeje ke?"

HAHA. Till that bad.

This picture was taken before majlis Hari Raya. They were calling for ANY JOHORIAN to anyam ketupat petak (PALAS EH THE NAME?).. Seperti wajib mana ada orang Johor xtau. This Anuar was so hebat, sleeping also can do lah! Poyo lagi. Bajet je sebelah tu. Last-last Amirul datang. "kau tak yah keras sangat tangan su, balik masuk kan jari dalam mesin tebu, kasi lembut".. HAHA.

MAMA saya terengganu lah! Mama saya pernah buat ketupat ke? HAHA. Mama kata mama pun xtau lah. terengganu ketupat segi tiga.

Gossip Girl and Gay.

Sorang ketawa kat depan,

Sorang ketawa kat belakang.

Cam Haram masing-masing.

Depan Boss aku aritu, 3 orang atas depan aku, curi-curi tengok whatsapp memang nak tersembur.

Habis seme gambar pelik orang diorang amek and forward.

Ice cream lately such a routine.

Bila slalu Pedajal Orang, memang kena slalu berkejaran, tarik rambut, and menumbuk.

Tolong ah sedar, aku tulang. Perut je lemak.

This is what Usman Awang said about Johorian:

But.... Capit Awang yang belum Allahyarham berkata :

Capit Awang.

(Rambot aku xleyh blah tu, cam pisau menghiris pipi)

Hehe. Friends are gift. I hope that Syaza and Capit Awang will stay at Hosp Kajang as FRP. Plz lah.

I love them.

Hee..

Ok Bye for the update.

Kesayangans.

2011-09-04T01:07:00.001+08:00

Jadi, saya balek Kajang, pukul 8 pagi, kerja 12.15pm tu. Sampai-sampai, abang oko ambil saya di TBS. masa tu da 11.30. So sampai umah kol 12. lambat la gi keje, 12.30 baru sampai. Pastu tido kat surau past lunch, sebab akit kepala ok penat nek bus, nak keje smpai malam, jadi kena curi2 masuk surau& tido, pesan kat 1 staff, kalau dia cari cakap Suhaida baru je masuuukk surauu. Ehem.

Mula masa kat Johor, rasa rindu kat Oko, bila da depan muka, eh saya macam rindu nephew saya la. macam pas keje nak balek kluang semula ok. ='(

So today, raya ke 5, membayang apa nephew and fam tengah buat ke berseronok ke kat rumah tu. Jadi saya spend masa saya dengan 2 kesayangan hari ini.

@ Mid valley with him. Wandering, malas nak beratur beli tiket movie, panjang. So makan foodcourt jap. Then tunggu Lila habes kerja.

BF: Kita nak buat apa ni sebenarnya kat sini.

Dalam hati I "Kalau ikotkan hati nak benti seme tempat makan, sampai petang. pas sushi, carls junior, floor by floor lah. Boleh tak? kata raya...."

Nasib baik Lila ada ajak makan, so impian melantak tu ada tercapai sikit lah.

@paddington house of pancakes

Nak pergi lagi boleh? Cedap la..

Yang askem ada bendera megah tu mesti la Alila punya kan. Dia tak makan yang tak de bendera, lambang King bab makan. Boleh. Ok tak2..

Eh jap nak kepoh. Korang tau ak, dunia sekarang ada 5 musim.. Spring. Summer. Autumn. Winter. Pastu skang kat Malaysia pun da musim skang. Musim Vain.

Ok bye.!

Raya ke 24.

2011-09-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum & Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir & Batin.

What a long holiday I had. from 20th August to 3rd Sept. 10 days. But minus weekend and cuti umum raya and merdeka, i just claimed off for 6 days only. I have another 79hours to claim while im a floating PRP. Where and when I'll get posted, dont ask. I dont know.

So, on 26th August me and family went to Kuala Terengganu. 2 out of 6 sibs were available. Me and Fazli. So the meriahness and the feel were not there. Like, at Rumah cik Ngoh only had Lina. Lina worked. So, like 3 days puasa there, i really bored, but Lina brought us jalan2 at bandar KT at night. So, at Kluang I already finished a novel, so thank God i brought my Desperate Housewives with me to kill the boringness and hungriness while not doing anything.

Tetapi, bila berbuka puasa, masakan cik Ngoh adalah terbaik. Menepati selera dan cukup rasa dan sangat idaman nafsu di waktu berbuka.

Ikotkan hati dari Kajang ni sebelum masak, call Cik Ngoh je la. Tapi biasa lah kalau call, bahan sama, kuantiti mesti tak sama, adjust tak sama. jadi hasil mesti la tak sama kan.

So, tak sabar menanti raya. Mungkin ada la perubahan feel tu. Sekali tidak. Apa lagi dengan baju raya a.k.a guni. ditambah rumah yang bahang. Jadi mesti la lepas asar terus cabut baju tu.

Bukti kekasaran kain.

Then raya ke 3 balik Johor. Menunggu anak2 buah kesayangaan. Bila complete 1 family, baru la..

YES THIS IS WHAT I CALL RAYA.

Satisfied. Bila dapat layan anak buah sebelum kembali bekerja pada raya ke 4. Tapi sedih Aqil, Affan and Awish bangun pagi jumaat tu. Aiman tak bangun pon, so pergi la bilik kak long berapa kali untuk ciom Aiman yang masih tidur. Dulu masa dia baby, saya akan masuk bilik masa dia tidur, dan bila saya keluar dia menanges, and saya kata saya tak tau, dia nak bangun tu, padahal saya yang kejut dia syp2, supaya saya dapat main ngan dia, jumaat tu dia tak bangun pun sebelum saya balik. saya dah buat taktik sama dah. ='(

I miss my nephews & my family. ='((

Random Honeyness.

2011-08-23T01:30:00.003+08:00

It might sounds corny. Indeed.

Sleepy sweetheart, reluctant to wake up after day.

Phoned his girl between snore, just to say...

Baby-I- Miss- You-Bye-Bye

Without hello and short.

In the weakest sleepiest voice.

I call it random sweetness.

Goodnight Honey.

Missing you everyseconds.

XOXO.

Unnecessary.

2011-08-20T00:57:00.002+08:00

Most of the time, i get piss off with the boyfie, because he always say NO to me in so many thing especially in buying stuff.

He will say , Tak payah, tak penting, mengarut, tak worth it, jangan merepek, JANGAN beli, etc2. He will drag me away from the shop, or i'll buy end up with argument.

But today, i know, how important to shop with him.

This is what happen, without him.

='(

A month of happiness

2011-08-10T00:15:00.005+08:00

Tadi rasa nak tido. Tapi tak jadi tido. Rasa macam asyik tido je puasa ni, sebab nanti sahur ngantok nak kerja. pastu rasa tak productive langsung, ye la, lagi-lagi tak de suami. (??)..

Suhaida Teck gheteck gheteck.

Now, I'm happy with my current life, i guess because, I have housemate. I don't feel kosong anymore, i don't have the urge to get out from this house. And i don't have the eagerness to know where will I get posted after this. S'okay. because, i don't wanna move. ='( But what if i need to move, to the place out of choices. Oh sad. I dont want to say Goodbye to my bestest housemate.

Having the BFF as housemate, some said, BFF cant be housemate. But with Khalilah Hassan, I guess, she defeats the saying. She has a good influence. Dia kemas, teratur. Dia baik je cakap telefon ngan siapa-siapa pun. Dia tak kepala angin macam saya. Somehow, I tried to follow her style, which means, kurang marah, bajet cool, kejap je la... provoke provoke aku mengamuk jugaklah kan. HAHA. She said, Im panas. Not to her la. To someone. No wonder, ramai sangat istiqarah kenal dia. Good Good. Ngan aku, istiqharah gak la, tapi opposite reason la kan?? HAHHA

Dulu dapur rumah, leh kasi sewa bilik la. Nothing je. tapi da ada housemate, terus ada barang. and rasa excited nak masak. Saya suka masak sorg je kot. Sebab kalau ada 2 orang, mesti saya takut and depends kat lagi sorg, kalau saya sorang, nak tak nak saya kena buat jugak.So puas hati di situ macam kejayaan dapat mengatasi takut.

I ada dietitian. U ada.. U tau satu fridge seme dalam tu, kalau u makan semua satu fridge sehari bape Kcal? U tak tau kan? Ni kak long Dhil je tau.

Nampak kan, tenang je suhaida ngan kuali, Suhaida and kuali, synonym je skang.. Walauppunn..

Hehe. K la.. Nak tido da.. Bye Bye..

Selamat berpuasa.

Selamat bersahur.

Selamat berterawikh.

Selamat segala-galanya.

Semoga maju jaya.

(ayat nenek aku nih. pinjam. leyh nek?)

HAHA.

And... lastly, i want to dedicate this song and video, to my sweethearts/BFF, truly from my heart, I MISS YOU. FRIENDS FOREVER. ♥

Last station.

2011-07-27T18:39:00.008+08:00

Hai awak dan awak. Im at the last station of my PRPship. HEHE. but I just sent the log book last friday, and the homework yesterday. Everything settle, i guess. And I applied for the same hospital as the first choice. But half of me said, I wont get it, since no vacancy pon. Gedik jer. But i am weighing several things for the choices. But, Actually i dont know, what best for me, sometimes i'm happy at work, sometimes im not. But the less pressure and most loved place where i wanna be, and will miss, is my rent house.

Ok-ok now im at TPN. The boss rarely smile. Im scared to talk to her. Even she;s smile, try to make sweetest face, I really cant relax, everything she said, i force my brain to absorb every single thing she said . HEHE. First day, she tought me. And then I guess she's busy, and i was finding my own work, and for the first time ever, me myself, flip the logbook, and read the objective, and learn by myself.. And i felt neglected.

But, today, i feel so contented, she asked me to follow her to ward, and tought me how to do calculation and all thing. The less thing I learn in university, is TPN. So, I felt ZERO. But i try my very best to not to look ZERO. And I gain a lot today. Thank you.

Ok this is how the clean room look like. Its very leceh la, before you can get into the room, so many step you must follow, and also, the stuff, so many times need to get swabbed. Oh the person inside not me, my friend, Pembantu pharmacist, at this time, i just see first. The most scary part, and the most hateeddd thing to do is breaking ampoullleee... Huh. previously i got saved by this fellow to break it up for me. Because i hate anything risky. HEHE.

The small ampule i succeed in breaking it, but the large one, i cant, maybe the fear block the impulse from getting to my hand from breaking it. HEHE.

But today, i think, i need to breakk it.. I need, to face the fear. I hold and break just the way the boss tought me,and the way to avoid injury.

So, i broke the ampoule using the finger, with the theme of "FACE THE FEAR''.. and then, heard the "paaaappp" sound. relief. And then checked my glove, the glove torn. And the blood fill in the glove at the finger areaa.. HUAAAAAAAAA....

This is the second alcohol pad, the first alcohol pad been threw away with the bleeding glove. HUH.

I FACE THE FEAR. BUT IT MAKE ME MORE FEAR TO TRY IT AGAIN. HAAAAH.

I Dont want to try agaaiiin.. I dont want to get cutt. Can the pembantu help me break all the ampoule for me.. I dont want........ hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....

Life.

2011-06-28T01:11:00.016+08:00

Life is moving forward, leaving the memories behind,

You and you donnt even know the meaning of love, and the feel of it,

The happiness is you, and heart is well protected,

People leave, people come in,

Creating smile, rarely leave scars.

As you grow up, two is always better than one.

And, life is a long journey,

Today she's your best friend, he's your boyfriend,

and time separating people,
Some people just meant to be your past,

even how hard you try to drag along the way,

all is left, you again.

because some people take your life away,

the moment they left.

You no more you,

until God introduces you a new one,

Provides you a new heart, to feel the love.

Human,

Misinterpret love as total happiness,

As the life become rocky,

The only advice you receive is to leave.

Forget that at the end of road,

nobody perfect.

Life is a long journey.

Friends everywhere,

Friends somewhere,

Heartbroken, Heartmended,

Starting with one,

end up with two,

Producing new heart beat,

Baby grow up, adult get aging,

Left alone,you again,
with lines of wrinkle.

Its life.

Its all about you,

at the end of the day.

Thats why God is there.

The only one who stays

No matter how many people leave along the journey.

"Kesian Ida"

2011-06-22T18:59:00.005+08:00

8.30 am : Location ICU.Ward Round. Calling... Mak Unggal Sayang.

Expected what she's going to ask.

"Ida.. Betol ke ida da gemok macam tu.."

"Ha'a.."

"Sian ida.. Nape boleh jadi camtu..."

"Ntah la,.. dulu kan ida penah ngadu sakit leher kan, tak sangka jadi camni"

"haih.. sigh...."

"Bye"

Aku memang nak tersembur da time ward round... memang pakat ngan cousin suruh tipu dia cakap aku da gemok.. Sebab selama ni apa-apa masalah kecik mana pun kol dia, ngadu kat dia, so dia tau la sensitip mana aku ni, perasaan aku semua dia tau la... Aku memang da agak, mesti dia tengah risau gila pasal gambar ni.

Aduh... Pastu sampai mesej pulak...

Aduhhh.. lagi aku tak tau nak ketawa macam mana dalam icu tu.. Buku nota aku tekop2 kat mulut.. Siap staff nurse tanya... "nape gelak2 ni.. biasa la.. orang bercintaaa".... Aduuuuhhhh....

Pastu mesej anak dia pulak, camane boleh tahan ketawa depan mak dia...

Dia tahan gelak dalam toilet.

Adoi.. Mak unggal mak Unggal... Pastu dia asyik fikir jee..

Siap tanya..

Mak unggal : Betol ke GG? Tipu eh?

GG : Mana ada tipu, kan ke da sebulan dia tak datang umah kita. dia malu la tu.

Mak Unggal : Tapi Mak njang (mama saya), takde pulak kata pape pasal ida.

GG: kan ke last week dia tak gi Klang jumpa family dia, sebab ni la, bukan sebab dia kerja.

Mak Unggal : Jom lah kita pergi Kajang melawat dia.

GG: Eh.. tak payah la mak, dia kan busy tu.. tapi kan mak, kak ida badan tak naik, muka je naik...

Mak unggal: Yeke sian ida...

Oh this is GG. Nakal budak ni,tak pelah, kalau aku mengaku tipu mesti ko paling dekat dengan kaki mak unggal untuk dikakikan. LOL.

Memang satu hari dia pk pasal aku, asyik cakap SIAN IDA je... Lepastu gg saje je lalu tempat makan cakap..

GG: MAK, KALAU KAK IDA TENGOK MAKANAN NI, DIA SUKA NI MAK, KAN KE DIA SUKA MAKANAN...

MAK UNGGAL : haih tu la.. mak da cakap da dulu control makan...

Pastu dia risau tengok GG makan. Siap cakap, NANTI JADI MACAM KAK IDA,

Then, aku musykil la si GG ni takkan tak tergelakkkk.. GG kata, dia gelak.. tapi mak dia cakap...

"GG tak baik gelak kan dia, kita kena bagi semangat kat Kak IDa, kita belikan dia apa2 ubat nak?"

Pastu pergi kedai yang abang sedara aku kerja pun, dia tanya GG, nak cerita ke tak kat Abang MIL?

"eh tak payahla mak, malu lah Kak Ida nanti"....

Haih. Sian Mak Unggal, kena main2 je arini, kalau dia tau ni, mesti dia mencarot kol aku. ~~Pukeeyyyyymaaaaaakkkkk.~~...HAHAH. Tapi sebab tu saya sayang dia, even kalau saya buruk mana pun, dia masih cuba nak kata saya cute, even ni main2 pon, nampak la kalau betol2, dia sentiasa ada untuk saya dalam apa jua keadaan, LUV U MAK UNGGAL, Tu la, dulu tipu ida, kata kena stroke, kan... ha.. balas... HAAAHA...

VAVIGO

2011-06-16T20:48:00.008+08:00

Gambar Hiasan.

Saya tak berapa gemar guna papago. Unless dah tak tau sangat.

Sebab pagi tadi.... saya ada 30minit je nak redah jam kat ampang untuk sampai ke Hospital kajang. Jalan A jam, jadi saya guna khidmat papago untuk guna Jalan B.

Tapi Papago buat cerita Kelly-Eng.. Dia suruh ikut jalan ni..

Aku dah la, satu pegang stereng, satu pegang Ipoonggg....! Aku da ragu-ragu da ni, suruh belok kiri, then u-turn, tapi sebab tu je pilihan aku ada, percaya Papigo.. aku ikot jee laaa... Dengar suara dia je la... jeling-jeling siket.. Xdapat nak tengok full view jalan...bilaa aku belokkk kiriii... MANA ADA tempat U-turn.. dia suh aku cilok masuk lorong kanan yang jam tu. So aku strrraaaaigghhttt la sampai atas sampai tak de kereta, dalam hati menyumpaahhh PAPIGO ni...

SEBENARNYA.. aku xyah susah diri belok mana-mana pun, tunggu je la traffic light hijauu... Go straight je la instead of u-turn u-turn haram J.

Seb bek sampai bape minit pukul 8. CHOI!!

Tak saya bukan perempuan emo.
Saya hanya perempuan lemah tapi cool yang dianiaya disaat genting. T_T

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Post kategori Perasaan

2011-06-15T09:47:00.004+08:00

Nak tulis post ni, kena pikir banyak kali ni, sebab ada dua maksud, Key word dia PERASAN. Dan terbahagi kepada dua iaitu BARU PERASAN DAN PERASAN LEBIH. Whatevoorrr..

Ok camni,

Mesti korang selalu kena tanya mix ke tak kan dengan bangsa lain, i feel like, i find something behind it,

Kalau aku dispense memang 1st chinese akan cakap mandarin ngan aku.. And lepas aku jawab bahasa melayu baru dia tau aku melayu. And mesti nak tanya, U MIX chineseee ke? Kenapa Putih?? (Aku tengok cermin hari-hari kulit aku normal melayu tulin, mungkin kulit cerah bukan kulit sejati melayu kot bagi mereka)

BF : SAYANG ORANG CAKAP CINA, TOLONG AH, SIKIT PON TAK DE.

(ye lah, betol la tu, kalau betol dan tepat muka sebiji cina tanda nye pergi KLCC cina datang jual alat sembahyang terus! LOL.).

AND THEN,

masa buat klinik diabetis semalam, patient india ni, tanya I, soalan biasa

U Melayu ke?

Ye Melayu.

U ada MIX ah?

MIX apa?

MIX china...

tak de lah.

MIX CHINA + INDIA

(aa part india tu aku baru dengar semalam, nak tersembor aku, nak kata kulit aku CINDIAN ke camane ni??)

HAHA. Takde.

Tapi Itu apapasal hidung mancung?

HAHA.

No la. saya tak mix. saya melayu.

YAKA?? MELAYU MANA ADA CANTIK!! (Tangan ke atas, macam yinnnadeeee)

AIYOOOOO!! SAYA MELAYU LA. PURE.

(mata bulat).. OO YAKA.

So, kesimpulannya, aku cantik. TITIK. HAHA. No la, maksudnye pure melayu hidung dia tak tinggi, kalau tinggi mesti tiru hidung india, kalau cerah mesti MIX chinese, sebab melayu kulit sawo matang. Perception mereka la aku rasa. Macam kalau cantik tak ori dari bangsa sendiri. Seronok kata melayu tak cantik eh....!! Ramai je melayu tak mix, tapi cantik okay.. melayu ni UNIVERSAL.

Soalan untuk Khalilah Hassan, NI MELAYU KE INDIA???

Adorable Card from Adorable Girl.

2011-06-07T23:11:00.001+08:00

I told u right I love my friends over here?

Today I got this from lydia.

Just yesterday she asked me what color I like.

I said I dunno. Most of the time, pink.

Today she smile at me, and gave me the sweetest and most adorable card I ever received.

Thank you So much Lydia Gan.

I LOVE YOU MUCH. ♥

Jun 2011

2011-06-05T01:58:00.011+08:00

I thought life will be easier. And its not easy at the end of the working day 3rd Jun. I was crying from noon at work, and hold the tears, and until at 1 phase, I cant hold anymore. It was a depressing end. Crying in front of friends, been consoled by them. Got in the car, tried to call family, but out of coverage as all of them went to Tioman, called Bf he;s not picking up the phone, still working. Called my ex housemate, to share the disapoinment. (Not about being scolded or whatsoever, something else i couldn't tell).

As I reached home, I couldnt find the house key, after found it in the labcoat and went up, and stopped in front of the wrong house, i was wandering to recognize my own grille. After get into the house, I searched for I phone, It wasnt there, so with the pyjama, I went back to the car, the I phone was on the front seat. The head just detached from the mind.

I was totally wrecked. The birthday seems past without even begin. As for the night before 12 am, bf brought me to William. I felt Ok whenever I saw him. But as I went back home, I slept, i refused to wake up, I was rebelling, i was expressing the disapoinment. At 5, BF asked to get ready. as he reached, he waited i dont know for how long, as i was busy to find my car key to get my heel inside the car. He was so angry as i got on his nerve and when I went down to the guard house, he wasnt there anymore. I lay back on the bed, I have nothing to think because the head just so heavy.

At last, he drove back to the apartment, i dont know how long he had gone. I sat in the car without talking. at last i talked to him and hold her hand in the mall, and softened my heart and try to forget everything. And he saw a jewelery shop, he stopped and asked me to choose a ring. Frankly this is my first time getting a ring from a man. I really appreciate it. Appreciate the patience in you. I.m sorry , it was my bad day, thank you for staying.

.Thanks Baby.

I've been crawling, step upon, stand up, prove people they were wrong, been judge, been tough, start again with positive energy, but the decision is theirs. I need to be tougher, stronger, life been so hard on me. Once again, stand up Suhaida, prove you can. God knows you can go through all this, thats why he choose you to go through this obstacles, to be a better you. Lift up the chin, and believe in yourself.

Reached home, there you are my car key, a day you've been outside the house.

Dear God, please ease my life, please make me a stronger person.

And, at the end of my birthday, im happy a girl.

Thanks for the wishes at FB that made my I phone continuously popping out the notification.

And the boyfie, im sorry for being an ass, and thank you so much for the birthday ring.

I promise to be a better half for you.

weekend yang cargas.

2011-05-31T21:22:00.004+08:00

Thursday - Aen drove from Jb to Kajang, for her registration at Putrajaya on Friday. So, on that night, i got cousin of Anjasmoro to teman me. So we chat all night long.

Friday - Alilah dengan tidak sabarnya mahu datang ke Kajang, untuk bersama-sama kami. So I got cousins of anjasmoro and monaaaa faandeeeyy at home.

So kitorang makan sushi, si alila tu bajet diet 3 hari tu, terus hilang diet dia jumpa kitorang. Aen yang tak diet tu makin rancak makan, tengok perot la weyh dua orang ni! '__'

And then booking cerita Nur kasih pukul 11 malam. Aku dalam xnak makan malam tu, sebab takot kawan lapar, aku order ah 15 biji chicken meatball kan. Pastu diorang xnak makan kan? Aku makan la kan. Tapi cerita Nur kasih tu sedihh woooh, tapi ada 2 malaun kat sebelah gelak-gelak aku xnak ah kan nak sedih2 sangat kan,, potong stim tol! rasa nak potong mulut masing-masing, balek rumah baru pulangkan semula!

And then habes movie pulang la kami ke rumah.

Pastu sabtu ada ah kan, budak tu, bangun awal pagi, tak kira ah ada support kawan ke tak de kan, pagi-pagi drive kereta pergi Bangi, nak jogging wooo.. Pastu aku bangun pagi terjaga dia da balek semula rumaah woo.. aku memang bayangkan dia balek memang da kurang la Lemak dia,, Tapi dia balek ngan 3 NASI LEMAK woyh. ngan teh o lagi kan...

Soalan : Ko jogging tadi?

Jawab : Tak lah, tak jadi jogging, aku sesat.

ALALALALALAL.. AKU PERCAYA. AKU YAKIN KO TAK GI BANGI, KO SESAT CARI NASI LEMAK PAGI-PAGI KAN?

Pastu pas makan nasi lemak, aku tak puas agi tidur, dah mangkuk ayun dua orang tu ajak pergi mana ek, jap aku ingat jaaapp... HAAAA.. dia ajak main masak-masak pulak kan... JAUH tu pergi kampung baru nak masak... sebelum tu gi tesco kan.. beli barang-barang masak...

Ni lepas dia abes round alat eletric baru dia sedar diri, dia datang sini nak cari sayur apa jad semua kan.

Ko memang ada gaya lila.. gaya apa aku malas cakap lahh... HAHA

Pastu pukul 2, sampai umah sewa lila... start la masak...

Jadi ni la ye bahan-bahan masak ye..

Aku tau a aen tu pendek Lila,, xpayah la nak sediakan stove masak kena bersila camni Lila..

jeng da siap.. Ayam masak merah I, soup sayur Lila..

Puding, Aen..

Jadi pack-pack makanan balek kajang, tapi sebelum singgah di sini..

untuk minum petang..

excited masuk dalam, macam banyak roti besstt.. kalau leyh nak makan semua..

Ada macaroon..

Ada mengkarung.. semua ada...

Then balek baru lah makan dengan masakan enak berselera dan lazat, sambil menonton AF. habes AF terus tidor. Penat ko tau tido pagi aku dibantot kan begitu sahaja.

Then, ok tidor la dengan nyenyak nye.. Bangun pagi esok nyaa.. dah start balek daahh planning dia.. mana datang idea aku xtau la... Mula-mula janji breakfast je kan.. Lepastu dia planning baik punya pergi rasmikan pembukaan jusco cheras selatan.. memang tak bukak lagi jusco tu aku dah parking situ lah. cuma lupa bawak punch card je!

Sementara menunggu jusco bukak.

And then, masuk jusco selesai berak kencing semua, pergi naik mesin penimbang ni. ko pandai-pandai ah pikir ni sape punya reading.

Pastu start lah karaoke semua sampai kol 1 tengahari, orang baru nak datang, kitorang dah balek la. sambong tidor.

Pukul 6 petang, bangun siap-siap pergi konsert mentor. Tiket free, thanx kepada yang bermurah hati itu.

And then 1 pagi lebih pulang lah kami kerumah.

Pagi isnin aku tak boleh bukak mata da, aku rasa macam baru balek induksi ke camping ke camtu la. JADUAL PACK!

Anyway it was a great weekend ever with u girls, and i still laughing till now.

MUAH.

weekend night post.

2011-05-22T02:13:00.004+08:00

So what am I doing tonight? and Last night and the night before last night? Huhuee.. This week, I just able to watch a movie, which is Fast Furious 5 with the boyfie on the Wesak day, and as you know, so many good movies are on the screen this week. I wish I can marathon all movies, and get the boyfie's notes go thin and slim. BahaH. But nah, with no booking, for two nights in a row, we just able to see the list of movies on screen, and see the time went green and red. For two nights, and for tonight, I blamed the boyfie for not registering online booking instead of blaming myself. LOL. So I can say its a wasted weekend and not enjoyable. And tomorrow I'll be working. Hey work, you should know I love you the most in this world.

So, I spend 1/10 of the free time studying cases because I'll submit the Log Book to bosses and should pass the viva or it'll end up with lecture. Am Just to scare sending the Log Book as I know Im not so well prepare with their tricky question, so thats it, will settle 3 Log Book this week, dont care can answer or not. I am procastinating.

I feel blessed lately.

1. Friends always be with me and make me laugh and smiling.

2. I slowly adapting the unpredicted working life. One day you feel so light and easy, another day you feel horrible. That so call work, there's no syllabus. Go with it, give your best.

3. I have a great boyfriend. Always put his best effort to make me feel happy, to control the thing I cant control which is money, (but seriously I cant adapt yet to JIMAT concept, I want what I want no matter how much left). Filling the car tank, asking how much I want him to fill, and apologize when not able to fill much, to spend the money with the good food, to cheer me up when I was sulking with no reason, to bear to read the unwanted message in my phone, and pretend nothing happen to not to ruin our happy moment, Riding to my place in unexpected rainy day, after working hour, just to have dinner with me, and just to make sure I was Ok when I was crying calling him after waking up from magrib sleep.You are the sweetest thing in my life. I had known the different you past few years and I really appreciate the current you . I love you. Big Thanks for your sacrifice. So much you had done to me which i am so not able to list down.

You are my Rainbow. =)

Work. Sulk. Laugh. Gossip. Loving.

2011-05-15T18:26:00.002+08:00

At last now, there's a room for me to breath. this weekend oncall was the most hectic one. Okay whatever about the oncall or work, im so gonna reduce vomiting it here. Because when I read my blog, I will skip the working part, because its just for writing and self-satisfaction to write, and to read back is so not. Heee..

Oh, Friday was my BF's birthday. AND.. I've got him So special thing which is NOTHING. LOL. And for the part kecik hati nye, he went to stadium to watch the Kelantan-Selangor Match on the Birthday's night and I called up my BFF to mengadu yang I bengang dengan Si dia, lepastu I tanya BFF I you kat mana, dia pun kat Stadium tu jugak and janji untuk Sepuk kan Si Oko tu kalau jumpa. And last night he make it up, not so make it up lah, but I appreciate you came to Kajang late night to pujuk me, Ya lah, you dont want to susahkan me, yang oncall besok pagi, tapi masih.... yela-yela aku pun tak cakap pape pon nak datang, pastu nak emo orang da beli tiket bola after kerja. SO SAD ok. Ok forgiven, miscommunication somemore.

Ok then , eventhough this weekend i was working like hell, I got FRIENDS at home. ALILA dan AEN. They really made my day, we were watching our own video, Gossiping, teasing, and after the hell day, somehow I felt like crying after went back home, but seeing them at home, laughing, i've been drifted away from the pressure day. But today, they went back already, I was so sad at work. ='( I miss your laugh.

And lastly congrate to Aen who had finished her dentistry course after 5 years of struggle. And I pray for the SPA to send you to Hospital Kajang.

Oh yeah, lately my stomach being so grumpy towards me till I need to take MMT, Ranitidine, Pantoprazole, the gastric drug. hello, I memang tak makan ubat tau. tapi sekarang I terpaksa ikut cakap perut I ni! HUM! KEMPIS TAK JUGAK KO KAN? LOL. Tadikan, saya amek ranitidine kan, saya makan depan pegawai saya, saya tanya lah, PAHIT tak? pastu alah, telan je lah, lepastu Ya Allah, rasa dia merebak atas lidah aku, kat situ jugak aku buek2 mata keatas, semua dah.. "Ya Allah, dispense bukan main, makan sebiji sekali lah apa lah, diri sendiri tak pandai makan ubat" LOL. And then I tried Pantoprazole, HUH... relax je rasa ok. baru rasa hebat je. Tapi Panto melegakan jugak lah.

Esok I dapat OFF! tapi Wesak kerja! Tak dapat la beraya dengan You All camni. Alaaa.. =(

Gossip community

2011-05-09T17:32:00.002+08:00

One day,I called up my mum, complaining about gossiping, backstabbing culture in my working community. WHY they always pick up negative side of people and make everything sound bad, plus they are way from perfect, who are they to label and judge people. Im just sick with the bad story about people, except them. Smile infront, behind stabbing. Just so many of them in my current life that I wish to not continue my FRP here. It just not a good environment.

My mum advice me something like this.

Pernah tak Ida dengar cerita, ada satu family, and jiran baru masuk pindah rumah sebelah. And wife dia selalu mengintai makcik sebelah rumah tu. Hari-hari mengintai dekat cermin slidingdoor, tengok makcik tu basuh baju, basuh basuh basuh, bila idai baju tu tak bersih pon. Jadi hari-hari jugak wife tu mengadu dekat hubby dia pasal makcik tu basuh baju tak bersih. Tapi suatu hari, wife tu intai lagi, and nampak makcik tu basuh baju, tapi kali ni, baju yang diidai bersih. Jadi wife ni beritahu hubby dia, yang makcik tu basuh baju bersih hari ni. Tapi balas hubby dia " Abang baru je cuci slidingdoor tu harini".

Paham? Itu lah maksudnye.

Penilai-penilai tu, hari-hari nak kutuk orang tu, semua orang dia nak kutuk tu, mungkin dia yang bermasalah, mungkin hati dia yang kotor, jadi penglihatan dan percakapan pastilah kotor belaka jika pasal orang, Pasal sendiri semua baik.

Saya pun kadang-kadang kena dengan mulut orang, balik down sebab mulut orang, tapi lama-lama saya rasa tak payah la down, not even significant pon apa yang orang nak nilai saya. Kenal tak sampai setahun, plus semua orang pun dia kutuk, so there must be something wrong dengan mereka. So i guess I immune already. So chill lah.

Mama

2011-05-07T00:10:00.007+08:00

Scroll down FB home, saw sister and little brother changed their profile picture. The photo with mom. And several others too. Oh its May, happy mothers day to my only mama. Dont even wish yet. I wanna change the profile picture too, but not in phone as it will duplicate your existing photo. But my broadband sucks. So i let it went it way. Haih.

Anyway, i wanna thank Allah, You still let my mum, and not to forget my beloved daddy to breath in the air till today to continue survive on your earth. And i wish it'll continue as long as i live. Honestly everyday im thinking of this, if i worry about my age, what about them, they are aging.

And as i keep on postponing wishing my mum. Out of sudden, The boyfie messaged me saying that he wanna go to his mum's grave tomorrow because he miss his mum. Itu sangat mensayukan. Ok. Terlupa yang ada orang lain da terputus kasih sayang dari seorang ibu. ='( pity you my boyfie, he breastfeed until 6 years old, makan bersuap sampai darjah 6, then went to boarding school, before university his mum died. Then he went to university, at least got friend around him, tapi bila cuti dia tak betah duduk rumah, as he said lagi terasa yang mak dia takde dah, bila balek kerja pulak sekarang sometimes dia rasa nak mengadu ngan mak dia, nak mengadu penat, nak mintak urut, nak mintak makan sedap2, tapi tak de) sedih ok. You can share my mum. I know it wont be the same. Hee. Im nourishing your life with my love, but still nobody can replace your mum, including me. (thats a big challenge to be your wife though ;p).

Apa apa pon happy mothers day to my only mama. Love and hugs. Xoxo.

Yang tiada, sedekahkan la Al-Fatihah.

Thanx mum and dad, and sibs for coming to my house.

2011-04-24T17:34:00.003+08:00

Family tersayang sudah pulang ke rumah masing-masing. Tinggal lah aku keseorangan. Hum layan tengok video Aiman baca doa. Comel je translation. =)

Aku ingat apa lah yang dia sambung baca pas doa makan tu.. macam Fadefufadefufadefu.
Me : Apa yang fadefufadefu?
HAHA.

I let my mind goes naked.

2011-04-21T23:42:00.006+08:00

This i guess should be written in private blog, but anyway..

I guess life is not progressing well.

Is like, I work almost 9 months, but actually Im not gaining financially, as the expenses and need is bigger than want. So, I just don't enjoy the life.

When I was in university life, I think that my note will be thicker after study, I can buy this buy that. But as I'm in the future that I dreamt of, I think it just harder, as you need to pay everything on your own, and live with what you left. I did more shopping in previous life than the current one. Salary is just for living, and not for shopping. =/ I hate it.

And plus me and you, plan and dream this and that. But, It just hard to get there. Why is the culture make it hard to get married, I need to save a lot of money in order to have a perfect wedding, hantaran, make up, photography,honeymoon, and all. But we still not there. So, I guess not any sooner.

And we talk about house. But nah, i feel more harder, Money make everything difficult. Planning to get married is so easy, but the journey to get there, is just troublesome and full of struggle. So, when i heard friend, of facebook friends get married, terdetik cam "untung nye hidup orang, macam senang je diorang ni kahwin, em susahnye saya ni" ye lah, saya golongan yang tak berapa nak bersyukur la kot kalau suka compare dengan orang yang senang lah.

But i know that the boyfie is working hard. I Love You for that.

I guess it just the phase that you are not under the parents, and you live on your own feet, you need somebody to hold you up, to be part of your life, i just need half of myself to complete me. This kind of life is driving me crazy.

Im in the phase yang tengok orang ada anak, saya rasa sangat, best nye life dia, balik kerja they have husband to talk to, children ease the tension.

Culture make things difficult.

I want to be your wife now.

Dengan ayat penyata diatas bermakna suhaida telah meminang boyfriend sendiri. LOL.

me and thank you.

2011-04-20T18:08:00.001+08:00

Ada satu pembantu pharmacist ni, lelaki, orang pineng, kelakaq la kalau dia dispense ubat...

Me : Amin, Amin dispense camni...

Ubat ni makan malam a, aaa aaa aaaa... (baca putus-putus aa aa yang ku tulis tu)

Cakap AA pendek cukup, nak berlagu dan terlekat2 pulak dihujung. LOL.

Amin : Ok ok su pulak.....

kak Faridah : Su macam ni... Okay, ITU SAHAJA TERIMA KASIH.

Aku terus gelak.. sebab kalau orang ejek aku tak kira hospital ke KK ke, mesti part terima kasih..

Dekat Hospital dulu, diorang gelak kat belakang, masa saya dispense, diorang claim saya cakap...

OKAY ITU SAJA. SEKIAN TERIMA KASIH.

Amin : KO PRESENT APA SU KAT DEPAN????

LOL...

This is about you.

2011-04-17T23:50:00.006+08:00

Is he cute? He or she ha? Bear you like to be he or she? you've been with me since I was 18, but you still confuse with your gender?

Hehe. Ok Bearbear slalu interprem tapi saya xpnah cite pasal awak kan bear-bear. Kalau orang tengok bear ni ada yang kata "meh aku beli kan ko bear baru su".. Uhuuu.. No need lah. I sayang Bearbear ni.

Dahulu kala saya sangat pencinta bear, saya suka kalau dapat bear, saya ingat dulu my bestfriend pada dulu kala nama dia Haziq Zakuan pernah bagi saya bear, masa tu saya sangat frust dengan result SPM saya, saya nanges je kat sekolah, lepastu dia pujuk saya, bawak gi makan, lepastu dia nak pujuk lagi, dia belikan saya Bear. Sweetlah bestfriend saya tu, tapi sejak masuk U.. da jauh, da langsong tak rapat. Sigh. Anyway, he was my great bestfriend I ever had.

And beberapa bear dari Ex-Bf, flings, and BF. Ooopssssyy.

And bear from the Boyfie, I remember that, I was in LRT, BF kept SMSing me, asking Where was I, late already, blah blah, I was kelamkabut, and the LRT jammed, and I made up story yang LRT tu yang lambat sebab rosak lama sangat.... padahal tak sampai bape minit pun.

And masa I kelamkabut keluar LRT, I saw a guy yang macam muka bf aku kuar dengan Plastik Lovely Lace kot yang gedabak, macam Ouwwh sweet nye BF aku yang jantan lagi memalu nak beli bear bawak beg plastik besar dalam LRT. Terharu betoi. Rupanya, dia da sampai Stesen LRT, sementara tunggu, takde keje dia naik LRT pulak, last-last LRT tu lak yang sama ngan aku, dia saje SMS aku tanya kat ne, pastu dia prasan muka aku gelabah type2 mesej, aku cam malu sdr reka cerita dalam LRT. Padahal dia ada je tgk aku. LOL.

Tapi semua bear-bear tu ada kat Kluang. BF makan hati bila tanya bear dia mana. Saya jawab.. "EH ada lah, saya jaga tau!"... "kat Mane?"... "Kat kluang, dalam kotak atas almari".. Zzzzz..

Ala saya da besar tak mau la susun bear lagi atas katil. Hehe. Bukan leyh peluk semua pon. I choose Bear ini lah untuk dipelok diantara banyak-banyak bear... Bear di dalam post ini. Itu bear, masa birthday saya ke 18, saya ada nampak satu bear besar berbulu-bulu kat Watson, murah je, 70-80 je kot, compared to bear-bear kat tmpt lain kan? besar and murah, and berbulu-bulu geram. Mintak duet mama cakap, mama bagi je duit ida beli hadiah sendiri. LOL. terus aku mendapat kan bear ni.

Bear ni layak berada di samping saya sebab, dia lembik, mengikut bentuk badan kita, tak serabut nak peluk. Dia da jadi bantal peluk saya. Tak boleh tidur takde dia. Walaupun saya dah kahwen nanti, bear ni tetap kena ada atas katil saya. HEyp! My bantal bushuk...

Tapi dulu bear-bear ni gebu, sekarang bulu semua kuncup dan bear ni dah kurus tak montok, biasalah diet sihat bersama suhaida. Ikot tuan lah kan shape badan dia, certain part je tak kurus. LOL

Mood baik bulan ni.

2011-04-12T20:30:00.001+08:00

Saya suka mentor kali ni.. cedap2... Paling saya suka.. Tapi setakat ni semua miss.. Hua Hua...

Salma

Shiha pun saya suka... selalu aku salah timing.. time shiha lah aku on TV. Time salma aku xde kat umah. tak pon ada kat umah silap channel. HAHA. Shiha best. tapi malas nak cari video. leyh x'? haha.. k bye..

Saya di mood saya sangat baik, sebab kerja dekat KK kan, hati senang, HAHA.

Happy birthday, Tira.

2011-04-06T18:25:00.001+08:00

Today is Athirah's Birthday. Im kinda suck remembering someone's birthday, thank God I log in Facebook and see the wishes. Padahal da tau dah tarikh lahir dia terbalik ngan I, she's 6.4.198X.. me.. 4.6.1999. haih.

"Another year has passed in your life, making you even wiser and stronger. Let your age not age your spirits. I wish you a very Happy birthday."

And these is the people I love in my work place.

All are very nice one, people that recently came to the stiff place, and change it to more pleasant place to work.

And If you know me, my weight, the previous thin me, would you be shocked with my current chubby picture? Because i'm still shocked looking at this picture. I'm not sure if I like or not.

Unstoppable laugh

2011-04-05T18:13:00.001+08:00

Video kegemaran mesti nak kena semat lagi kepilkan diblog.
Tapi kalau disambungkan dengan abang sam nye award lagi tak benti gelak.

What you fear most...

2011-04-04T19:38:00.007+08:00

Haritu ada satu soalan daily formspring..

Time jawab ni, rasa macam eh, tak tau la takot apa.. Aku lupa aku ada penyakit penakot yang tak sesuai dengan umur aku, seperti kanak-kanak takot doktor, dan juga seperti orang tua yang berkeras tak nak masuk hospital or whatsover.

Diringkaskan cerita, dulu aku pergi scaling gigi, hamboi Siap dentist tanya "tingkatan berapa adik ni?"... Jawab makunggal " Da university dah... .. Siap sibuk doctor nak scaling, aku geli dengan darah dalam mulut aku, siap tepis tangan doctor, sebab mintak laluan nak muntah =p.. Memang kecoh.. Hehe..

Masa university, kan ke ada amek darah kat faculty, nak tengok antibody etc, hem, time tu aku tak tau nak buat perangai camne, sebab kena sedar perangai merengek nak lari ke, mintak tangguh ke apa ke, tak seswai dengan umur aku. HAHA. So, aku cover je lah, kawan pun takde yang rapat lagi masa orientasi, Tapi sampai je turn aku, ada student medic nak amek kan darah, tak silap aku aku tak cakap apa lah. Bajet cool.. tapi the real doctor tukar dengan student tu, SEBAB, walaupun tanpa kata apa-apa, tangan ku pucat, darah tak ade. HAHA.. At last tak sakit pon, sebab dia borak-borak dengan saya.

Masa nak buat medical check up, orang lab tu, borak-borak dengan saya, macam saya budak kecik tau.. HEHEH.. at last tak sakit pon saya rasa...

So saya mesti nak ada kawan masa inject or amek-amek darah ni, sebab saya nak tengok muka kawan saya, ataupun nak suruh dia borak-borak dengan saya, ,mana tau doctor tak kuasa nak layan aku. kekeke.. Tapi setakat ni Alhamdulillah, doctor semua layan aku. HAHAHA.

So, cerita bermula disini, tadi tu retrospective tu, ha, kan, ciri-ciri suhaida yang sebenar tulis blog dah keluar dah.

Haritu makan dengan my supergirls. Si Aen Rahman si budak final year dentistry tu, dia tanya, kenapa leher saya bengkak bahagian bawah.... HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... aku ada goiter ke.... memang ku cuak... pastu mood ilang dah nak berborak.. sebab kalau masuk ward, aku sangat emphatic punyee.. macam "kesian nye masuk ward, tiap2 hari kena inject, orang godek-godek je, jauh kan la aku dari penyakit-penyakit berat"... Sekali dang.. Thyroid pulak ker??

Nak tau kena amek darah la pulak. nanak............ Tapi symptoms memang tak de...

I have none of the symptoms. But Saya akui, saya sekarang kuat makan, tapi masalahnye, seluar saya semua dah tak muat, I gain weight.............

So, ingat petang tadi, nak gi path lab amek darah, harap-harap dapat orang lab yang sebaik orang pathlab kat kluang yang borak-borak ngan I sampai tak rasa sakit pon amek darah, tapi dah call syaza kat hospital kajang ajak teman pukul 5, sebab mana lah tau, orang lab tu tak friendly ke apa, boleh la borak ngan syaza. HEHE.

Then sampai pharmacy hospital kajang nak fetch syaza, masuk pharmacy nampak senior housemen named adeline, terus aku tarik tangan dia.. masuk bilik PRP, "Adelin, cuba you rasa leher I, ada apa-apa tak, thyroid ni".... dia pun cekik-cekik tolak leher aku ni, hem.. "No la,, i cant feel any nodule pun".. Oh yeke.. lega kejap... But why not do blood test... "I nak pergi path lab la ni"... "aiyyooo... why must go to pathlab, come-come i draw it for u"... "sure a adelin u'r good at it, i tak nak sakit tau!"..

Dia pun drag I masuk emergency department, tapi perasaan tu, kurang seram bila kawan yang buat kan, bila dia da ready nak draw,.. aku start lah.. "u ada tak yang tutup mata tu.. tak pon you borak dengan I,,." "ok-ok i'l borak dengan you, tapi you tak boleh gerak tau"... Pastu banyak sangat cekadak aku... "you baring la, aiyoo very bad patient... "... "eh tapi lagi satu tangan I nak maen game tau kat phone".. PAstu memang tak sakit, pastu aku rasa sakit, aku jerit.. "aaaa.. sakeeeet sakeeetttt"...sudah lama keluar kan jarum la"... Hahaha. pastu aku gelak cam setan atas katil.. nurse masuk pun siap tanya "dia kenapa?"... "amek darah"... "amboi siap baring".... HAHA.. Tapi masa i draw blood tu, ada doctor tu cakap, ada jugak M.O (Fully registered doctor) macam I, amek darah orang, bila orang amek darah dia, bising mengelupur.. HAHA. See.. ada geng..

but the result will be out 2-3 days. But according to adelin, if the thyroid hormone high but I dont have any symptoms, doctor wont take any steps to treat or give medicine, just repeat the blood test in a month. i"aiyoo. if no symptoms.. what to treat lah.. if its high, then you feel good, means the value is suitable with your body, unless the level is sky high"

Masa kerja,, mama call... " Mama rasa, ida tak de pape, sebab mama kalau pergi klinik ke apa ke, mesti orang tanya leher mama kenapa, mama rasa ida ikot leher mama , (since berat bertambah, mungkin baru nampak mengikut mama ke apa)..."

But then, just wait for the result. I really hope the level is Okay. Pleasseee God.....

Story dalam story. Post bekalan sebulan.

2011-03-27T02:20:00.012+08:00

STORY 1

Next week will be my last week for the clinical attachment. Boss is not around, on vacation, so anything ask me doc. Frankly speaking, I enjoy clinical, enjoy ward round with specialist because he's so genius and like to share his knowledge. And I make sure I clerk all patient under my part, so i wont be blur and know patients condition and medication. Especially when the boss not around, i should prepare and help more. And its such a satisfaction when I can contribute something everyday. Im getting use to the job, and I like it. Like detecting and minimizing the error. =). Dulu if I buat intervetion, I xtulis dalam BHT, sekarang I tulis ape error yang I jumpe and suggestion. So, tak de lah housemen ingat pharmacist ni bersiar-siar je dalam ward, suka-suka hati je. To be a clinical pharmacist, just not an easy job, you need to know the drug more than specialist. Sbb specialist rajin baca journal, and lagi pandai dari doctor2 lain pasal ubat. jadi jangan harap duduk sebelah specialist untuk dia tanya "apakah dose untuk ubat ini?ubat itu? apakah ubat untuk ini dan itu?" Itu soalan housemen and nurse. Specialist memang macam tak de. Soalan susah-susah jugak. I fikir kalau nak jadi clinical pharmacist, kena sangat rajin membaca guideline and journal-journal like my bosses. I respect them. Sebagai PRP I hanya pandai mejawab soalan housemen and nurse sahaja. Specialist wa seram sebab dia suka main teka-teki, suka soal-soal housemen dia, nak soal-soal ubat dia soal aku lah. HEHE. But I enjoy it. Tanya lah I pasal ubat, tak de lah pandai mana, tapi cukup untuk kurangkan kelemauan minda saya.

STORY 2

And next friday i will do attachment at Klinik Kesihatan Kajang, they said, got more patients 7 hundred. even though 700 patients, only 2 dispenser, so 350 patients per day i need to dispense. (if at hospital kajang, 400 hundred patients, but 1 dispenser, only peak hour, got 2 dispenser). I just dont like this. Talking to patient. But attach as dispenser not a bad idea to shape your personality.

Previous me : hate to talk to stranger, hate giving instruction repeatedly, get angry when patients argue (wasting my time).

Current me : automatically smile seeing the patient, and when i walk i easily smiled to others, when i dispensed, i said to myself "sabar, just repeat what you said", kalau patient marah " tenang, pahamkan apa masalah dia, cakap baik-baik, jangan sama marah".. Because I learned that, patients when they got angry, be calm, smile, at last they will apologize to you for being rude.

Patients' Phenomena

Lazy to read

contoh : yang ini amek 2 biji 3 kali sehari, ini 1 biji sekali. bla33...

patients : ok. jadi yang ini amek berapa tadi ye? yang ini? yang ini?

(dalam hati aku, ko boleh baca sendiri tak? aku da sebut sekali cukup, kan ke da tulis atas envelope tu?)

Lazy to think

contoh : Ok yang ini sapu dekat tali pusat baby, supaya tali pusat mudah tercabut, yang ubat telan ni, untuk isteri kamu.

patients : Ok jadi.... ubat sapu ni, sapu dekat pusat isteri saya???

(hummmfsss!! isteri kau tak tercabut2 lagi ke tali pusat???)

Dan banyak lagi jenis kemalasan. Nampak macam senang je dispense. tetapi melayan kerenah manusia tu, not my preference. especially rude patients. tapi kalau kat tempat I satu PRP je dispense dari kol 8 pagi sampai 5 petang. berbuih la kau sorang-sorang kat depan. Tapi sampai satu tahap I kena complain sbb tak senyum, and masuk dalam meeting sebab layanan tak mesra, kalau yang tak turun padang, dia akan marah kita, tapi kalau yang good manager and supervisor, kalau tinggi mana pun pangkat, dia akan dig the problem. So, i paling suka bila dia cakap " ROTATE DISPENSER! I TAK NAK ORANG YANG SAMA DARI PUKUL 8 SAMPAI 5! PENAT LAH DIA BERCAKAP! SEBAB TU KENA COMPLAIN!"... Baru lah orang belakang tak rigid dan tak membuli PRP sangat lagi. So now, counter dah ok. =)

STORY 3

Now, I have a Fan. A doctor. Chinese Girl. She likes me and made confession in the middle of night, and it just creep me out. And the next day, i was working, she's oncall. She get in pharmacy to lepak there. Noted there she always puji me, and check our oncall schedule. Plz lah. dont come to pharmacy and find me again. I gelii............... bak kata my Bf.. gegel... ahahaa..

STORY 4

Saya sangat sayang boyfriend saya.

STORY 5

I'M MISSING MY MAMA AND AYAH SO MUCH. I WANNA GO BACK HOME.

Ok tamatlah story telling.

Multitasker day

2011-03-10T18:57:00.003+08:00

Hem.. Walaupun screen aku ni vibrate cam fuaka, aku anggap je ini hanya ilusi... rela aku mengadap dari keluar duit... Tapi dah start pening da ni... hem..

Ok la.. Da tukar type kat iphone.. Hem ok arini adalah ari paling ba alif nga sod alif ta dalam hari ward aku.

1) the boss attend kursus. So i was alone in the ward. No problemo.

2) tdm boss not around, off because last night supernight. No prp under her this month.

3) chemo boss, off.

Ok lah. Seme tak de. Lepastu aku menanggung semua. Seb baik aku tidor smalam basah habes pipi dengan air liur basi. Tetanya tanya jugak aku dipagi hari, mala petaka apa datang menimpa nanti. (tiba-tiba)

Maka dengan berbekal kan mata yang perit sbb lebih tidur, aku ke hospital. Sangat bersemangat untuk menimba ilmu di ward 2 yang sangat seronok. Belum sempat habes aku ikut ward round, belum pnat lagi kepala ku mengangguk2 paham....

1) suhaida, u incharge tdm kan arini?

- tak.. Ye.. Oh ye betol la. Nape

Ada patient nak kEna buat tdm, suspect digoxin toxicity.

So when i was gathering the patients info... Come another doctor...

2) suhaida, dr xx nak jumpa

-wait a, why?

Doctor want you to gather the medications info of this patient.

So I called up the fam. The fam didnt know his fAther being admitted. Promise to bring it at

5. (betol ke??)

3) Suhaida this patient need insulin counselling.

- when the family will come?

At 6 or 6.30

- @_@ ( ye la tu, kalau aku kena tunggu sampai isyak cane?)

4) ran to lab.. To do tdm. Machines error. Called up sandeep. About 1 hour and half, settle. So i need to run the sample. When i was about to insert the sample....

Ring ring ring....

Suhaida, are you free?

-am doing tdm

Can you go to ward, and check whether chemo got injector or not. If not, you go to my table, got syringe and injector, you play play with it, then go to ward 1, help doctor yy to connnect.

-but i never done it before!

Suhaida! U need to learn!

-(bloodyhell you learn via phone)

You wear the glove, mask, goggle, gown, and help doctor yy. Dont press the plunger, the chemo will spill.

5) so i walked to opd , to figure it out. When i was on my way to opd. Hp rang.

Pharmacist suhaida ye?

- family patient lagi setengah jam sampai. Boleh counsell la..

Im busy now, can u ask them to wait? Or i got my friends to counsel it? Later i'll let u know.

6) when i was figuring way to learn how to connect it.

Suhaaaiddaaa fon!! Sorry u are so popular today.

-yes

Where are you suhaida? We are about to start the chemo. Fast fast!!!

7) in the middle of serabutness.

Suhaida, this afternoon, you follow rvd (hiv) clinic right?

8) when the tdm result was out, satelite called.

Suhaida, ward 2 got 2 patients on insulin.

- can u ask ss to help me?

He also busy.

(wtf??? He personally help me!! So crueeeel you!!!)

Reach opd, to analyze result.. Ring ring....!!

Pharmacist suhaida

-yes

Result digoxin da keluar?

-ye dah. T i dtg bagi. Toxic. Bye.

And ptg i diakhiri dengan patient yang sgt susah utk counsell, sampai nurse gelak kat counter tgk i xsiap2 lagi cerita kat patient. Ada yg i follow ubat dia, dia tipu, boss i ptg ada, dia ckp" pukul la su! Kita tutup langsir ni".. Heheheh..

Boss i baik. Masa pg, i ngadu kat dia pon, dia layan je msg i.

Tp sy hampir menangis arini kat tmpt kerja...

My frp said "how they expect u to be in 3 places at one time??"

Today was a bullshit day. I felt like killing people.

or myself? no no...

Having the life like the good old days.

2011-03-06T22:43:00.003+08:00

It was a great weekend eva where the empty house being filled with bunch of sweet and pretty girls. I rescheduled my shift with my friends so that i can meet them. At 7, I picked Fareha and Syaza at Commuter station, as usual they said i didnt change, I still can sang even when my fuel went blink. Still dunno how to make u-turn on crowded road, drove through tol without a note.

After that we went to Yunkee Hut at Bangi around 10 0'clock. The Girls already there. Venue sounds delicious, but it just not. Slow and not sexy at all.

After Yankee-Hutting, we went to tutti frutti at 12. If its an OT, we'll earn more. We were the last customer. Just after we move the butt from the chair, the place closed. Everybody was so sleepy for next activity, so we headed home.

I asked them to bring their own pillow, because i don't have much. It was a fun night. Very long time never had this night. It felt fresh. This is where I wanna be. =)

Waking up, not alone anymore. Friends everywhere. We ordered Domino for lunch. At noon, Haifa arrived to pick up Reha and Syaza. And I can say a short time with you guys. We should meet again. Will. Thanks for coming to the house.

After talking, sleep, talking, sleep, talking, we went to OU, have Ketam Village. Nice place. Nice food. Dont forget to dash to toilet after that. =p Nah. its hot and spicy, not because of bacteria.

Then we went to The curve at 9. Because Ena's BF was there to suprise her for her birthday.

Happy Birthday Zareina Maidin. ♥

We arrived home around 12 or earlier and dozz off.

And we ended the gathering with MCD's breakfast. And thats it the weekend with Bunch of Sweeties.

♥♥♥

Clinical.

2011-03-03T19:11:00.006+08:00

Hem harini, saya nak cerita pasal pandangan saya bila attach dekat clinical.

Hem. Lets do the comparison.

PEGAWAI I CEKIK YOU.

Dulu pernah sebulan attach. Tapi under surgical and chemo. Mula-mula saya suka pegawai tu. tapi bila under dia, aku rasa nak bunuh dia. Eh tak. Bunuh diri.

Sebab kan. jadual dia macamni. Pagi-pagi dia cakap saya nak 6 CP1 (borang assess patient's previous medication) dan 6 CP2 (borang clerk case).. Setiap hari pukul 5, saya nak PCI (medication problem).

Jadi, datang pukul 8, dapat CP1 berapa je lah. Lagi-lagi bila tanya patient, patient tak bermaya, ubat tak ingat, ingat bentok je, janji bawak petang lah. Pegawai akan kata, contact family dia. Kalau dia tak ingat, contact klinik/KK yang dia pergi amek ubat. Detail sangat. So pukul 8.30 ke 9 ke da start ward round. So, dengar je la specialist bercakap. CP1 aku ke mana dah. habes ward round. Su, pukul 11.30 jumpa I kat OPD. Tapi pukul 12.30 je lah biasanya baru dia jumpa I. nanti dia suruh siapkan borang chemo dia. habes lunch time aku. (dia bagi pukul 12.45 , then dia kata, before 2 I nak, siapkan kira2, order kenderaan, fax semua @_@ ).. Nanti masuk ward da 3 lebih. CP1 boleh la settle. CP2... memang aku salin jeee.. "Su, 4.30 petang jumpa I kat OPD.

Sampai OPD so present me the case. " This patient is a.... she;s having blaa.. blaaa ".... "Stop. I dont want to hear this. Whats the PCI"......... " Hem actually I just finish salin only, Xsempat nak selak apa problem"... "Ok next patient, So the PCI"... "Not yet"....

Tapi I did learn something useful from her. Kalau kat surgical tu, bukan banyak ubat sangat pun, kadang aku tengok, Ala, antibiotik ngan painkiller je, pastu apa masalahnye.... Pastu dia ajar lah..

Ok as a Pharmacist, the first thing u look when u got a BHT is the MEDICATION CHART. Dont read their clinical progress. Thats their Job. Dont see the dosing, dosing must be correct (sebab pharmacist kat satelite dah approve, unless kalau dia ada kidney or liver problem, the dose mungkin ada salah).

"Painkiller - interview patient, sakit dia ok ke tak? kalau ok, kalau doctor bagi tramal ke boleh tukar dose dia, atau pun downgrade ubat dia,,.. kalau tramalll ke morphine ke.. tanya patient,, ada berakk ke?? tramal, morphine boleh sembelit.. tengok doctor ada bagi lactulosee takk'' camtu la contoh.... maksudnye.. setiap ubat tu cari reason behind that,. sebab kadang2 doctor lupa off. continueee je burden kan patient dengan ubat. (tapi aku nak salin pun xsempat, nak gi interview patient, memang 1 2 je la aku dapat, nanti kau marah).

Bila petang dia akan main uji minda dengan I. Contoh. IV pantoprazole how long bagi? " "3 days" "3 days?" "yeah, 3 days, sebab masa kat satellite practice 3 days".... "I CEKIK UUUU!!, go back and find it'.....

Besok nya... "so, suhaida, how long bagi IV panto?".... "From Lexicomp, its 72 hours"... "yeah thats right"... "But yesterday I answered 3 days, why wronng??" .. " Because the way you answer wrrong, you cant say because satelite gave 3 days, cant follow people, reference".. @_@

Tiap2 hari pun aku kena I cekik U. Setakat ni, pegawai tak suka bagi jawapan. Satelite mahupun pegawai I cekik U. Dah jawab pon dia akan kata betol.salah je. tak suka nak share. ( I guess not good jugak)..

now, PEGAWAI YANG BEST.

Mula-mula nak masuk clinical aku rasa sangat pressure ingat ke sejarah mungkin berulang. Tapi pegawai ni baik sangat. Dia kata I xkesah Cp1 u berapa, u nak clerk case pon i xnak limit kan berapa-berapa. Sebab I nak you belajar. (dia macam lagi reasonable, quality is more important than quantity)..

hari 1st 1st March, dia busy, so I pergi bagi borang TDM, spin darah lunch time, Counselling banyak. So dia tak dapat tolong I. Tapi dia ada tanya.. "Are you okay? da lunch belom? im so sorry i cant teach you today, because im so busy." Hari ni kira hari ketiga. Saya rasa dia banyak turun kan ilmu dia, walau pun i balek i masih kena cari dan baca, Tapi dia banyak ajar. I rasa seronok masuk ward, sebab baru lah nampak interesting. kalau doctor pun, memang lah dia marah2 H.O dia, tapi at last dia bagi jawapan, dia cerita why this why that. Tapi pegawai clinical sini, mecam sangat/sikit kedekut ilmu, memang lah kena usaha sendiri, tapi apa salah nya share ilmu, dont be too hard. tapi pegawai ni best. I sayang dia. memang I rasa bodoh bila banyak benda i xboleh jawab. tapi agak tak meng Fed up kan orang lah, at least u dont keep asking, she did teach me. =) 3 days i guess sangat productive. =)

Hari ni, saya bangga siket, saya dapat buat 4 Simple intervention untuk satu patient. Wink Wink. (technique nak buat intervention tu I belajar dari pegawai I cekik u ).. (tapi ilmu clinical macam banyak diturunkan dari pegawai sekarang).

Apa kah maksud

2011-02-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

Dari semalam saya tak sihat. Tapi weekend ni saya oncall, dengan berat kepala, bulu roma meremang, hidung tersumbat pergi kerja. Dalam tak larat tu, saya pergi buat TDM dari kol 10 sampai 2. before kol 10 saya buat la kerja kat OPD. Balek TDM saya jadi makin teruk. Sampai bila saya cakap ngan patient, hingus leleh laju je, terpaksa lari amek tisue. Tapi masih dispense. Lepastu saya sangat tak larat. Saya cakap ngan pembantu Pharmacist, "Saya baring jap eh" (Baring atas meja) " Kalau ubat dah siap bagitau. Lepastu masa saya baring tu, saya dengar Pegawai dari geng senior yang langsung kebencian PRP cakap dengan Pembantu Pharmacist, hanya selang satu meja kecil je dari saya " BALEK LA BALEK. DIA ADA TAPI TIDO, TAK DE GUNA".. Saya pun terus tak jadi baring, terus gi kounter utk ready dispense.. tapi dia amek bakul tu, cakap ngan muka kerek, BALEK LA BALEK. Aku pun dispense la dengan suara yang tahap sengau aku sendiri rasa cam nak semput bercakap bila aku menharapkan mulut bernafas, tapi bila cakap ngan patient macam semput2 aku tarik nafas kat mulut.

Tak tau nak interpret dia ikhlas ke perli ke apa.

Bila pegawai2 kebencian saya nak pindah?

Dia takkan borak dengan PRP, kadang2 saya cuba nak borak, dia akan jawab lambat atau angguk atau jawab sepatah. kalau dari jauh saya senyum, dia terus pandang lain.

My friend used to be PRP here, so yang golongan senior, dan sorang pembantu pharmacist yang bajet bagus ni, suka mengumpat and burukkan dia masa dia PRP. Sekarang my friend sambung jadi FRP here.

Dia kata " u tau nape reason i stay here? Sebab I nak balas dendam dekat sape yang burukkan I dulu"

Pembantu pharmacist yang bajet bagus tu pun dia da sound, yang pegawai bajet sangat tu pun, dia da perli habes depan kawan2 dia.

JUST THE MATTER IM A PRP I LET MYSELF BEING NOT RESPECTED.

tapi bila kena marah tu, memang terdetik " nasib baik aku PRP, kau tengok aku habes PRP, kau siap, memang tak de aku terima cacian semua dari kau"

Hargailah pengorbanan dan usaha orang lain untuk memuaskan hati semua pihak.

ENVY

2011-02-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

I wish I can enjoy weekend as my previous life.

Hard to hang out with friend. Set up time and date with ex-housemates, it must be something coming to ruin everything.

If i force myself entertain the friend. I will end up mess up on the monday.

If weekend not oncall, I will bring the work at Gombak, settle there.

Not going to sister's house since I know i cant tahan to see my nephew's face. I'll ruin my schedule again.

Sometimes I feel so tired with the PRP thingy. Sometimes I wish I can Quit, and wish Im rich enough to pay the fine quiting the compulsary service, and have a husband that so rich rich rich that can support my life. =p

And all the times I wish I can end PRP's time NOW. August please come soon and sooner. A month feel like a year.

I envy people can enjoy the weekend without fretting too much.

FRP: So are you going to stay at Kajang after PRP time?

me : Yeah. Because I dont like adapting new environment again and again, find new friend.

FRP: so which department you like?

me : I like OPD.

FRP: I thought u like clinical.

me: nah, who said that.

FRP: and im shocked you like OPD. my first time I asked people, nobody choose OPD, you are the first one, all of them hate the management and dealing with patients.

I DONT LIKE CLINICAL BECAUSE:

-Kena layan kerenah doctor and nurse lebih banyak dari OPD.

-Plus kalau masuk ward, tak suka bau ward, tak suka tengok patient yang dalam keadaan tak sihat sangat. (thats one, and another one, I nauseated many times, one time, I vomit)

- Dont want terikat dengan time kerja doctor, and nurse, TDM, TPN tak suka.

-Manufacturing, stor- BOSAN

-OPD, dimana tempat berkumpul nya pharmacist, pembantu pharmacist, student, ITS HEAVEN, when you ca still joking. If go to ward, to serious, no pharmacist's friend. You are alone there, So dont like.

Blogging from working place. First time sungguh.

2011-02-14T19:15:00.003+08:00

Saya masih di tempat kerja. Saya mau pulang ke Gombak, esok kan cuti, saya nak balon siap kan kerja yang membeban babunkan saya ni. Oh ye. Bila kita plan baik punye, calendar pun da conteng2 lah, date ni siapkan ini, itu dan ini, limited ni masa ni, Tiba-Tiba kau melihat muka aku, kau order keeja macam order teh tarik dekat Mamak. Hati dan kepala mula serabut, nak nanges tapi tahan, sebab dah super pressure bila orang buat kita ni macam 1 hari kita 48 jam. So rancangan semua dah lari ni, yang kena hantar dan berpoint terpaksa tolak tepi utk kerja-kerja seperti mengumpul leaflet Injection dan tablet Hospital nih, da siap 2 kalau ada leaflet yang tak dapat kena call company mintak, tak pun pergi bukak file2 lama yang kalau aku punya lama aku bakar sebab menyusahkan bukak fail jatuh semua. Lepas 2 file siap, aku dah mengucap tak mau buat kerja ni lagi, ada lagi yang datang tanya, SIAPA YANG BUAT FILE LEAFLET UTK SATELLITE. .. eM SUHAIDA PUAN. ... SUHAIDA SAYA NAK LAGI 2 FILE YE... buat la mana yang mampu, kemudian diselangi dengan proposal,kemudian presentation, seme bukan berhenti kat situ, Dragging and overlapping ALL. Pastu jumpa aku lagi, SUHAIDA.. DAH SIAP DAH 2 FILE YANG SAYA NAK TU? .. EM yang takde leaflet saya tak cari lagi.. IC SAYA NAK AWAK BUAT LAGI 2 FILE YE. TABLET PULAK...

So bila berhempas pulas semalam, mengabaikan presentation segala, aku kerja kan leaflet. malangnya tak siap jugak semalam. SEBELUM TIDUR APA AGI AKU MELALAK AH. sebab habes masa preparation presentation aku, slide aku tergendala, mmg aku kena attack pulak time present nanti. Macam mana lah, macam mana lahh... Kadang rasa nak give up. Banyak nye kepala, banyak nye arahan. Nak off bukan main susah.. ada 30 jam time oncall aku, aku tak claim agi. SO semalam aku sebelum tido masa nanges2 ni scroll FB nampak la junior time sekolah share video mamat ni.. memang aku balon layan semua video dia. Aku tidor dengan kepala ringan dan happy. I adore this guy ability to crack joke. LIKE 444 Kali. BUat lagi banyak video ok.

Aku berdekah-dekah before tidur. Penyelamat hari saya. tak tau pulak lepas video hari ibu tu dia ada video lain. Tertingal ke saye? =p ok Bye. Hujan da tak lebat. Lapar lah.

Cotcetcotcet

2011-02-12T15:34:00.003+08:00

Its weekend. Actually I oncall this weekend. but exchange with friend. So next weekend im working from 8 to 5 sat and sun. Then the other weekend work again, 8 to 2 sat an sun. So chill lah siket weekend ni, tak bape nak chill sangat lah sebab jumaat ni ada presentation plus ada side task yang kena buat.

Oh Talking about presentation, I remember last wednesday, I was in outpatient pharmacy (OPD), and I picked up the phone, and

a women over the phone said 'saya dari unit pendidikan, siapa yang present hypertensi harini"

and me 'Jap eh' announce at the OPD "Siapa yang present hypertensi harini???!!"

Kak ijan " Kau lah"

me "saya??"

Kak ijan " ye la, kan kau yang present february. Gi tengok jadual"

Then I pergi tengok jadual, Ya Allah, aku lah yang present, aku dah a tak pernah present kat Clinic, Slide pon aku tak pernah tengok, Then lydia yang hantar pergi MOPD clinic. Dia kata baca je slide. Slide pon aku xtau camane bentok.

Masok-masok ada doctor waiting bagi talk pasal hypertension, lepastu mesti diselangi dengan pertanyaan patients2 pasal ubat, dan akan dijawab begini oleh doctor dan staff nurse " Ha, itu kena tunggu turn pharmacist yang cakap, Pharmacist Suhaida akan terang dan jelaskan semua pertanyaan pasal ubat"

Ok dah. hUMFS HUMFFSSS. Apakah semuaaa iniii.

Tapi as the presentation began it didnt hard as I think, it just for a lay man, and the questions is not hard as I think. (Aku ingat ke cam presentation among pharmacist and doctor, mmg mati senyap aku kat situ nanti bombarded with this and that). But it just a key word. So my task was to elaborate the key word, in lay man word. Tapi kadang aku tersasul siket ah macam "calcium channel lah apa lah kan"

So my next presentation this wed about diabetes, the other week hypertension again, i need to read about the drug, must be an expert especially about side effects. Hum. And oh you must be expert in mechanism. Macam ada satu patient ni, kita cakap, ni ubat darah tinggi. dia akan cakap, "Awak cakap betol2 ni more to jantung ke darah tinggi. So kadang2 aku ngeng siket aku kena pk lah ubat ni b-blocker selective ke tak eh"

(Eh sometimes datang patient yang educated mmg masak aku, dulu ada patient tanya kat counter, I nak tanya, amlodipine ke captopril yang turun kan systolic saya, mana satu yang turunkan systolic lebih dari diastolic, lebih kurang camtu ah dia systolic diastolic dia, aku dah, ni aku kena check journal lah pulakkan).

Hehe. I love people asking me question. Because in many ways, it;ll improve you. Jauh lagi perjalanan menimba ilmu. but in work, in hard ways. =) Seperti being bombarded, kena laser, malu bila tak dapat jawab, being judged. but I hope i will end with the better me. It will. Strong and positive. =)

Ok lah. Wanna do my work. Bye all.

Eh mana yang baru datang jenguk blog ni, sila lah makan askem atas meja ni. Sila-sila.

Whats wrong with my decision?

2011-02-11T20:12:00.003+08:00

Its just nice to see my house with friends. I love em for coming and lepaking at my house during Sembahyang Jumaat Time, since all are staying very far such as PJ and Subang Jaya.

One of them is my new Pegawai, she lives in PJ. So, she is finding a house to stay. So, I was so excited inviting her living with me. Since, you know, the other room, so nice if a friend can fill it. I dont wanna advertise because its very risky, and i dont like to make friend with stranger. So, she was considering to stay with me. Somehow she said, she needs to discuss with her mum first, because she just live at PJ, can drive or rent.

So after working hour, I called up my Mom and the Boyfie. They just didnt agree with me to rent the room for a non-muslim. I was so blur and became defensive.

My mum said, im not so KUAT pegangan agama. SO living with a non muslim housemate is not a good idea. and my mum said, She wont sleep at my house anymore. Yeah, maybe she cant anymore, sleeping at the hall together with daddy and brothers, maybe because of aurat. Maybe so not privacy for my family, I GUESS so.

And.. and.. i SMS my pegawai stating the reason, and she replied positively. Which still, I think, I dont feel good dissapointing people with choices they have.

Whatever la, mum doesnt like, and some people may be sensitive with this kind of issue. So, I stop it.

Honestly, I was googling, Permasalahan serumah dengan orang bukan beragama Islam. FOOD AND LIFESTYLE WONT BE A BIG DEAL FOR ME. Can be discussed, plus i like her style very charismatic and charming, and easily blend. Plus she's a Malaysian, and urban some more. She would understand muslim culture.

Its ok la, Mom knows better. Kang cakap, IT WONT HAPPEN IT WONT HAPPEN Kang, Tuhan nak tunjuk kang kena batang hidung sendiri pulak. tak pe lah. asal hati mama tenang sudah.

In the middle of night...

2011-02-09T00:57:00.003+08:00

I am so rajin to update my blog tonight because i feel like I have the responsibilty to update my account. As I said, I dont like to update when life is not so happy, but I just came back from CNY holiday. Yes. Kena bajet cina jinjang sekarang. jadi maksudnya disini adalah benda yang happy, jadi tangan kena la rajin record apa yang happy dalam hidup ni kan? Kan su? Dulu masa buat blog AIM : RECORD ALL HAPPY MOMENT IN LIFE, SO EVERYTIME U FEEL SAD AND LONELY, READ BACK YOUR BLOG AND SAY "HEY I HAVE A WONDERFUL LIFE AND PEOPLE AROUND ME." Smile Smile. =))

Ok For my CNY holiday, yang seperti dimaklumkan dalam post lepas, saya tak oncall, maka yang pasti saya pulang dengan gumbira dan excitednya ke Johor. Mula-mula ambil abang Oko dulu lah, sebab parents saya macam suka kat Abang oko ni, sebelum raya cina asyik mention ajak Oko balik raya cina tau, (dia ingat oko muka cina nak bagi ang pau, limau 4 kotak?). Jadi Oko yang segan-segan silu dibawa pulang Ke Johor. Heaven lah ada orang teman balik Kluang. =)

Sampai Johor, ada adek Aqil yang makin active dan tak sombong muncul dalam kekepohan dipintu. Yang penting tak nak salam saya. Bila saya keluar kan I Phone, dia patah balek dekat saya, tapi dia tak pandang saya, Pandang Terus ke arah hand bag saya dimana terletak nya I Phone saya. Aisih budak-budak jaman cekalang ni. Hehe. Kemudian baru lah Aiman sampai. Laptop yang dibawak penuh keberatan dari Kajang dengan Niat hendak membuat kerja, memang tidak terbukak, hujung jari pun zip tu saya tak sentuh. Tapi bila saya tarik balik I phone tu, budak-budak ni akan mengalami withdrawal syndrome seperti meragam dan addicted to game. Jadi terpaksa buat-buat I phone rosak. Tetapi budak berumur 2 tahun ni, tahu button mana nak on kan balek screen. dan dengan kerja sama budak 3 tahun, mereka tahun macamana nak unlock slide. I benci tau benci!

Ingat yang baju oren tu rela sangat nak bergambar? budak 2 orang ni tengah mengejar I phone saya. Mesti lah saya suruh macam-macam dulu, seperti suruh cium saya dan bergambar dengan saya. Aiman ok je, budak Aqil yang liat tu boleh dihilang kan liat nye dengan mengumpan I phone. Tapi comel and pandai betol dia buat muka. Kan? Adek affan,kesayangan Mak Ida, sebab dia budak yang sangat tenang dan suka ketawa. menyenangkan hati nyeee dapat anak macam ni. Macam mana lah anak saya nanti. Suka anak kakak-kakak saya ni.

Oh ini anak abang saya, masih kecil dan banyak ditidurkan oleh mama dia, jadi tak havoc sangat lah. baru 4 bulan je Darwisy ni. Tunggu besar siket lah mungkin seronok main dengan dia. Hensem kan?

Ini pula adalah bulu hidung seseorang. Tak nak bagi tau siapa. Cuma clue dia, nama dia Oko. Tu je clue. Pandai-pandai lah pikir siapa pemilik bulu hidung ni. HAHAHAH.

Ni masa adek Man ikut maen Bowling. Ya Allah, bertambah sayang Mak da dengan dia, dia bukan budak yang meragam nak pegang bola bowling, (and tak macam seorang budak yang suka baling bola bowling kat lane sebelah, bila halang sepak kaki aku. ish budak tu datang aku cubit bomtot dia.) Man baik je, tangan pegang i phone mak da, main bowling dalam phone je. Hehe . COmel kan dia?

Man pandai Camwhore tak? Mak ida tak pandai sangat. @_@

Aiman : She is so vain. (My auntie).

Oh ye. Masa di Kluang. Abang faiz bukak cerita Hantu Kak Limah balik rumah. Mula-mula dekat laptop je. Lepastu saya keluar dari bilik, saya tengok semua orang mengadap dinding. Kemudian saya terkejut tengok Hantu Kak Limah di dinding Rumah. Kerja ayah lah rupanya dengan projector. Besok malam nye hantu Kak Limah lagi. Kali ni ayah bawak screen putih pulak. HAHAH. tapi best, dah macam panggung wayang dah rumah, tiap-tiap malam tengok cerita hantu ngan Fam, dari Hantu Kak limah, Ngankung sampai Pendamping Malam. HEHE. I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH.

No she's far from vain. Trust me.

Blend together.

2011-02-02T00:00:00.002+08:00

worst bawah tu. ignore ignore.

The only thing that make me love Hospital Kajang is my PRP friends. I love them because the beauty of our friendship, where skin, cultures and languages doesnt matter. In university there was a barrier between one race and a race. Its not like they all being racist. But they were more to their race, like we only friends for the matter of assignment. But here, Indian chinese malay friends are well blend. And I love it.

I remember during puasa, Sandeep and lydia approach me, lydia like gave her hand to me, and ask me to join their lunch. And i was speechless and said ' Im fasting" and she apologized to me, I laughed inside. Hehe. And Sandeep, I like him because he is very helpful and gentleman guy. I remember when i was handling Dandgerous drug, i went back home at 10.30 pm, because i was stocking in boxes of DDA. I was too tired. Then he was from home just visiting the pharmacy, he was shocked I still there. At that time, i hide my face behind the cupboard door. He asked " Are you okay su? " There, I CRIED. He was there calming me, said he will help me tomorrow, just leave whatever you are doing now, i will settle it tomorrow. At night he was wishing me goodnight and take care. He was so nice. All my friend here very nice. And I have Shantini, gossipping around. =) Memang rancak bersama. Hehe. (remembered when she knows something about me and bf and some prob, she asked athirah to sepak me so i wont play with my bf's heart. OOpsy thats was long blur day.) When Atirah was busy with her counselling, Sandeep covered for Atira, Lydia. will cover for me, at 4 o'clock so I can count DD tablets before 5 o'clock, If i havent settle she will never leave the counter. SO, im persuading Lydia to stay at Hospital Kajang like Shantini, so we'll still be together. Kajang will have nicer and nicer FRP. Syafiq also very nice. He will smile no matter how geram he is with the task. Will teman me most of the time eat Rojak Ayam. HEHE. Athirah of course you my love one.

The only place i feel no barrier between races is here. Among PRP and junior FRP. and 1 Senior FRP named Angeline. =) Love joking and teasing with her. There's no pegawai treat PRP that friendly. =) Among some i hate there, I have bunch o f sweet friends that make my day feel bless. =) =)

Sandeep stuck in MOPD clinic after 5. Being locked in the clinic. HEHE.
Called up Athirah for help.

Saved by Guard. Looks like Just-released Prisoner.
=p

Gong Xi Gong Xi..

2011-01-31T23:17:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Fa caii Gong Xi Gong Xi...

Haih excited gila nak CNY nii.. sebab dalam 5 prp yang ada. Nama aku sorang tak naik oncall.. GAGAGAGAA. jangan jeles yeeee.. ok la tu, cuti bola aku kerja, thaipusam kerja.. Raya cina boleh hoyeah hoyeaahh... Alhamdullilaah!! heehe. Plan yang utama nya mesti lah nak balek kluang.. Kalau tengah kerja ingat rabu malam (kalau oko tak penat lah), dah nak balek kluang.. terus jantung cam melonjak geli2 macam turun bukit yang tinggi uh.. Lepastu bila orang update pasal banjirrrr.. ada goyang siket harapan, takut jalan-jalan utama banjir. Parents kata tak banjir jalan utama ok lah... Yeess! lagi 2 hari kerja. Last balik kluang Raya Haji.. Mumumumu,....

Hardest phase of my life.

2011-01-28T01:04:00.008+08:00

But its ok. I dont want to complain much.

But God Knows how much burden I'm carrying inside. Aaargh. Its hard, God. Help me along the way.

Stress - meet people.

Meet people - stress thinking unsettled work.

Not meeting people - Miss.

Can I have a normal Life?

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EH nak update siket.. dulu kan i kena complain pasal tak mesra kan dispense ubat. sebab I kat tengah-tengah, bila ubat tak siap ke jumping ke, nih muka ni jugak mengadap patient, amboi yang kat belakang uh, seronok la " tekan je nombor tu, cakap nanti kejap, kadang2 sampai 10 nombor lebih dah lebih 30 minutes, dia suruh tekan jugak nombor tu cakap tunggu, kalau aku jadi patient aku panas ah, dah tak siap agi kau tekan watpe?? tapi sebab nak jaga statistik dia suruh tekan before 30 minutes lah kan? Panas lah yang tukang dispense ubat ni.... Belakkang senang kerja tak systematic, pastu arahan amboi senang lah, yang tebal muka aku, tapi kalau dulu, ku memang emosi naik ke muka, nak marah pegawai tak boleh, pendam jek ah, tapi skang aku ok dah, aku senyum je, wat tak de pape, aku fikir aku as orang tengah kena cool, mengadap patient, BAK KATA PENGKOMPLEN, GUNA KAN ANUGERAH TUHAN SEBAIK NYA, SUPAYA TERUBAT TENSION TUNGGU UBAT. Aku pun pikir betol jugak, so aku skang tension ke apa senyum je, and aku rasa lebih ringan untuk dispense bila patient ikut senyum" ok lah tu.. not going to be a typical goverment servant anymore. ( i know its due to workload that drive them to be like that, its free stuff, so a lot of patient compared to swasta, so need to layan so many kerenah, mood yang baik boleh bertukar jadi haramJ. Tapi disitu lah kena pandai handle emosi. ) thanks kepada yang complaint.

SOngs of the day

2011-01-17T10:52:00.000+08:00

This song is for my sweetheart-you-know-who. =)

And this song is for whoever called my friends. =)

Bye bye . Need to siap-siap pergi kerja.

New resolution

2011-01-12T23:51:00.000+08:00

I wanna manage my time wisely.

TIME

Kebiasaan : Balek kerja, penat. baring, baring, gayot telepon. Bosan tak de housemate, cari mood lagi, facebook, gayot telepon lagi, ok lah, dah pukul 11, do something lah tonight, nanti besok menyesal kerja tak gerak, buat kerja sambil webcam ngan boyfriend, minus-minus apa je aku buat ntah, kepala berat, tidur. itu je lah. itu je malam-malam balek kerja, macam tak daya sangat nak buat kerja. Yelah weyh kerja kot, penat kan, balek nampak katil, sape tak tergoda, rumah tak de TV, camana nak buat rasa macam tak sunyi sangat, kena la webbie and calling calling. Kadang-kadang angkot laptop pergi Subang, buat kerja dengan boyfriend, yang sangat baik hati, tolong type kan kerja, dah la tenang je, saya serabut mana pun, dia suruh saya tenang, and buktikan bila kita tenang keje boleh settle. haritu present dekat dia, mula-mula malu, sebab malu ah tak pernah nak present depan dia, lepastu ok lah bila dia jadi pengkritik, rasa macam kerja saya settle je bila ada dia. TAPI MAHAL LA PULAKKAN MINYAK KALAU TIAP2 MALAM NAK GI SUBANG BUAT KERJA KAN. DAH LA JAMMED.

Sekarang : Saya rasa saya tak boleh manjakan diri lagi. Harini saya pergi kerja bawak laptop, habes kerja, saya lepak kat surau sejam, lepastu makan waffle cokelat yang sedap, terus work on project, go go suhaida go go, 9.30 malam balek. AT LEAST KERJA AKU GERAK. lepastu tak de la bosan sangat, ada la dengar suara orang yang oncall 2-3 orang tu, ada lahh orang,, ada laaah kan... itu yang aku mau sebenarnya. Ok lah start esok nak macam tu je lah, kerja jalan dan tak buang masa, tak buang duet, bila kerja settle, weekend kepala tak serabut fikir kerja. YEYEYYEYE.

Sebab saya rasa saya terlalu kecil diantara PRP yang lain yang hebat dan berkualiti, saya kena usaha kuat lagi untuk buktikan saya berkualiti, bukan sekadar siap kan kerja sahaja, dan menghasilkan sampah yang akhirnya dibaling ke muka sendiri. Saya tak mahu itu.

DUET

Next month nak beli kasot la, kasut kerja, da buruk dah, heels pun itu lah keluar jalan, itu lah gi kerja sejak kasut kerja buruk, bila aku gi toilet, salah simbah air masuk kasut aku bertakung tu yang aku tak gemar tu.

Lepastu next month da start nak kumpul duet untuk bina masa depan dengan yang tersayang.. ECEEEWAAAHHH! =p

Macam dah lupa apa aku nak hapdet.

2011-01-11T20:53:00.000+08:00

INTRO

Ehem teshting shiket teshting banyak teshting besar teshtis kecil.

Woh. Kenapa aku sangat tak bernafsu dengan blog nih.

masa tunggu makanan siap dekat kedai makan, google la blog2 feveret, banyak la seyh dah update, balik rumah baring, view blog akak, gila aku asyik tekan older post jeh, mmg aku tak pernah baca pon post dia yang sebulan dua kot. kenapa eh? Ntah lah, kena makan pil hormon penguat nafsu nih dekat blog. Sama seperti kesimpulan yang dulu-dulu, bila hati happy, kita hapdet. bila suam-suam kuku cagu, macam tak pelah. gayot dengan boyfriend sahaja. A-Z semua kat hujung jari Boyfriend sahaja. Mungkin sebab tu tak de tak de idea kot. HEHE.

Oh yeah. My bestfriend mesej I kata saya dah jarang lepak dengan dia. AND sangat macam serba salah sebab bila dia da tukar kerja pun saya tak tau, tau pun bila saya bukak blog dia, yang berpost2 saya tak baca. So untuk redeem saya dah call update kan segala benda yang saya tertinggal pasal dia. HUHU. sowi Egy.

PERENGGAN SATU - KERJA

Lama gila jugak tak hapdet pasal kerja. FYI, last month saya under Drug Information system yang jawab panggilan dan pertanyaan pasal ubat, masa tak de soalan, saya tolong dispense ubat dekat counter. RELAX LAH DARI BAHAGIAN LAIN. HAHAHA.

Bulan ni, and bulan depan, saya under OUTPATIENT PHARMACY, kerja saya dispense ubat je lah, layan kerenah patient yang kalau kat luar memang aku nak sound-sound je. menguji sungguh kesabaran. SENANG JUGAK AH KERJA OUTPATIENT. Sambil dispense sambil hafal ubat and dose. Kalau nak extra knowledge, bila telefon bunyi, angkat, memang kalau angkat, tu doctor la tu yang call, dengan soalan-soalan dia, best lah jawab, saya suka, bila orang tanya kita, kita ingat tau.

Bila orang suruh saya tolong counsell patient kat ward, automatically, mood saya berubah masuk ward, saya tak suka ward. Memang susah nak iklhas kan hati masuk ward. Kalau nurse masuk pharmacy pun saya tahan nafas, sebab dia bau ward. BUKAN mengada sangat lah. Memang thats in my gene already. Tak boleh bau ward. Saya suka outpatient pharmacy je yang mengadap patient yang sihat sedikit lah dari di ward. tapi kerja kat outpatient susah dapat off ='(

PERENGGAN DUA-MAXIS

Nampak tak macam mana maxis menyusahkan hidup aku. VAVI. sekarang dah beli DIGI with FON-RM75. HAHA. Aku malas nak guna service dia lagi.

Siapa tak sayang family ntah.

2010-12-21T00:44:00.001+08:00

Bila tengah happy rasa macam nak update blog sangat-sangat, bila da start kerja isnin, mula la aku rasa macam nak record suara je terus masuk blog bercerita. senang.

Baiklah. untuk memendekkan update. ia akan diringkaskan dalam bentok point.

1) Jumaat, 5 pm, me and the boyfie bergerak ke Klang, sebab kak long dah book muara ikan bakar dekat klang pukul 8.30. Lepastu dapat tau kakteh tak dapat join the dinner sebab balek kerja lambat. haih merindui muhammad Aqil.

Syukor Meet Shukor.
BAHAHHA.

kak teh kena tahu, betapa rugi nye tak datang.

2) kemudian sampai-sampai kejar aiman lah dkat umah dia, tapi nampak ada budak gomok dalam buaian. mata bulat. gewaam la mak ida.tapi si budak Aiman tu pandai betol amek hati saya. sampai-sampai je, "mak da, computer mak ida bagi elok lagi"

Gelak je lah adek appan ni.. tenang je budak ni.

Ni la buku electronic yang beli untuk dia masa birthday dia yang ke 3. Dulu masa 1st beli, dia sibuk bukak tutup sampai kalut orang dalam buku ni kejap A, kejap Z, kejap pig. yang Aiman hafal just Hello little bookworm, and Bye Bye little bookworm. So, sangat excited tengok dia pandai da nyanyi lagu ABC. kekeke..

Ni pulak bilik Aiman. haih banyak sangat permainan dia. masa nak beli hadiah dia waktu birthday pun mati kutu fikir macam semua dia dah ada. hum.

Aiman ni lambat jalan, tapi cepat bercakap, petah pulak tu, aku cakap tepon ngan dia memang lah nak ketawa dengan cerdik dia cakap, kadang2 silap tone, kadang-kadang gaya orang tua, semua benda dia mengikut, harap-harap masuk tadika next year (dengan hanya berumur 3 tahun 2 bulan tapi ikot tahun 2011 da 4 tahun la) janganlah terpengaruh ngan word2 kasar kawan-kawan.

Ni video Aiman nyanyi lagu Wan dia, atok perempuan belah ayah dia, yang babysit dia hari-hari.

3) sabtu baru la Aqil bersama ibunya yang ala-ala cikgu shida datang. Pergi makan lagi, jalan lagi, ah tak yah la cerita lagi. (macam lah ada orang paksa)

Aqeey peyaat agi cakap. bila tak nak aku, memang ku kuar Iphone, game meow, game bowling semua baru dia datang. hehee. lepastu berebut ngan abang aiman yang memang tak kan kalah tu. Hehe.

ish. ni je la berjaya pendekkan. boleh la ni. tak lebih 6 perenggan rasanya. pendahuluan ok, isi perenggan pertama, (faktor), kedua (cara penyelesaian), ketiga (kesan-kesan terhadap masyarakat), ok lah tu, penutup pun da rumuskan apa tu perenggan di atas. boleh la ni SPM karangan A4.

Disini saya kepilkan gambar family, kalau rasa ada isi tak cukup boleh la kontek diorang eh cikgu.

Bye.

Song for you baby.

2010-12-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

I dedicate this song to the love one.

Am so not pretending. I love you from the bottom of the heart. Just screw everything in the past. Im more than happy, and so grateful to have a boyfriend like you. Stand by me when i was not me. =') ...

Lets do math

2010-12-11T13:53:00.005+08:00

Should I share or should I not?

Ok since Im the firstimer using Maxis data, I Value value Bulue Bulue thingy. Agak macam tak percaya dengan semua kaedah pengundang korupsi ini. Sebab dulu pernah guna postpaid, kemudian bayar bil yang macam menyusahkan hidup aku yang susah, yang suka bila susah tak susah call orang untuk berborak-borak sebab apa ada hal weeyhh, ujung bulan aku bayar, tak perlu gores dan menang lagi. Lepastu tinggi sangat bil, terus bayar bil, and terminate nombor lama, kembali kepada konsep gores dan menang. Tapi sebab nak guna I phone, terpaksa guna postpaid lagi. Wa memang seram lagi sekali. Selalu fikir berapa bil aku ni.. Harini bangun tidor dikejotkan oleh surrprrisssee fromm maaaxisssss! bil anda telah exceed 80% dari rm200. Apakah? Huaaaa. sila buat pembayaraan. Huaaaa...

Buruk nye kau ni. Cover sikit.

Tag : Cik musenah

Jadi activity yang semesti-mesti nya mesti lah call 123. Jadi saja nak share apa yang saya baru paham.

So, aku start guna I phone 15 November. So billing untuk bulan novemnber yang aku kena bayar RM 37 (eh pemvetullaann ! bukan bill saya eh, contoh sahaja, tu bill orang dalam gambar ni).

Soalan

MANA SEMUA FREE CALL SMS SEMUA MANA?

Oh rupanya perempuan atas ni guna 80++ dari middle of november sampai end of november, dia free kan (dari package) perempuan bernama CIK MUSENAH ni rm 35++ camtu ah. so itu yang bill november jadi RM37.

KENAPA SIKET SANGAT FREE BAGI EH? BUKAN BANYAK LAGI KE PATOT NYE FREE.

Oh sebab awak guna dari middle of the month, jadi free free pon dia separuh kan. Next month baru free full tu jalan. (kata operator kepada cik musenah).

SO YANG BULAN NI PUNYA (DEC) YANG 129 TU DA TOLAK FREE SMS,CALL SEMUA KE?

Belum.

HABIS TU NAPE SURUH SAYA BAYAR BENDA YANG BELOM FINALIZED?

Total usage tak boleh lebih RM200, (cik musenah punya campor 37 + 129 macam 160 ++ ah) kalau awak punya bil kurang dari tu lepas tolak discount and rebate dalam bil bulan ni, kita akan masukkan dalam bil depan.

PAHAM TAK? MAKSUDNYA DIA KIRA JE DULU SEMUA. BILA DIA NAK FINALISED BILL, BARU DIA TOLAK SEMUA FREE CALL, SMS KITA BLAH-BLAH, TAPI TOTAL USAGE YANG ROUGH PUNYA TAK BOLEH LEBIH 200. IF JEJAK 200, DIA BAR, THATS WHY DIA SURUH BAYAR DULU. (berapa ringgit tak full pun tak pe, asal kan dapat jauhkan dari 200). Paheeem?

Lepastu terus rasa nak jimat je mesej ngan bf pun macam tak nak la reply. Mahal la satu seposen. mesej free 200 je sebulan, jadi satu hari free 6 mesej saja la. memang sah-sah lebih limit. itu kalau mesej bf sahaja. sahajaaa.. kan? yang kawan2 lain macamana kan? baik jangan pakai tepon kalau mesej pun kedekut tak nak reply.

So wanna use other nombor. Bf said just change to family plan. So called up maxis again.

FAMILY PLAN 30

FIX charge 30

MAIN : 20 hours free call. 2000 free sms

SUPPLEMENT LINE : 15 hours free call, 1500 free sms.

Skang ko gtau aku cukup ke tak. satu hari maximum 66 mesej free kat boyfieee. muraah kann? kan??

orang lain punya boleh pakai I value data, kan??? haaa.. murah la sioot..

I Value 1 data (current data am using)

free call : 300 ++ minutes (google sendiri)

Free SMS : 200 sms

Ko cerita kat aku skang, cukup ke tak? kat bf je da 300 mesej sebulan . ko cerita skang kat orang lain berapa pulak. dah la. mmg data iphone saje mmg tak cukup untuk kau su.

Plan : Activate kan FAMILY PLAN.

Antara soalan lain,

MACAMANA SAYA NAK TAU SAYA DA LEBIH 1GB INTERNET USAGE.

Go to setting > general > usage > scroll down until nampak cellular network data, tambah kan sent and received. itu lah total nya, saya guna tak sampai tak sampai 30% dari 1GB. MUEHEHEHE. excited makk.. cik musenah aku tak tau.. yang atas-atas semua cerita pasal cik musenah. Yang internet ni je baru kisah benar saya.. haiihh haih. bangga betol.

oh soalan lain.

KALAU SAYA GUNA WIRELESS TAK CHARGE KAN?

untuk selamat, masa guna wireless, on kan plane mode. so, kalau connection wireless to low and putus, dia tak sambung kat GPRS tanpa awak tau, hummm. tapi tak best nya orang tak dapat contact awak lah.

tapi tak payah la, bukak FB and twit je pun, kalau connection putus, berapa sangat je pun MB gerak.

Ok tu je la nak share.. bye. Lagi satu, ko baik tukar bil ko jadi itemised billing rather than bill kat umah ko sebab charge rm5 bill tu untuk post. bye.

Bangkit dari kemalasan.

2010-12-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

Lately saya mengalami masalah kemalasan.Kemalasan dimana saya merancang kepincangan sendiri. ceeeh cehh. tak delah. Kalau ada masa 24 jam pun, 2 3 jam terakhir baru buat kerja. Tak nak lah mengadu tak de masa, padahal banyak je masa aku buang. Serba salah tau bangun pagi T_T. semalam janji nak buat kerja lagi, aku tidur dengan tag nama sangkut kat leher, dengan baju kemeja butang satu pun tak de pun bukak satu dua, melambangkan memang tak de niat apa lagi usaha nak tukar baju. Mandi apa lagi kan. Pukul 8 malam terus tido kroh krooh. Pukul 8 pagi besoknya baru bangun. SOB SOB. buruk perangai aku. Ikutkan hati nak amek je beg terus pergi kerja, sebab memang dah siap dari atas sampai bawah. datang pukul 9.15 pagi. Disiplin aku nyaaahh!

Harini, berazam nak buat kerja, gunakan masa sebaik-baiknya. Cakap ngan bf "malam ni saya nak buat kerja" "baguslah, awak buat la, jangan tangguh-tangguh" . "tapi saya nak buat jadual dulu"... "buat apa buat jadual, buat kerja la terus, jadual da makan satu jam nak buat".. buat kerja teeerusss.. takk.. tak terusss.. sekarang da pukul 10 malam, perbualan itu pukul 8. betol lah. da buang masa. Tak pe, prinsip bermula esok.

Focus!

2010-11-20T10:36:00.002+08:00

STUDY MODE

MEMAKSA DIRI KE STUDY GROUP

YANG KANAN TU PASTI LULUS.
YANG KIRI BELUM TENTU.
='(

Last minute person

2010-11-18T21:07:00.004+08:00

Tadi Call bf cakap "awak boleh tak cakap "suhaida boleh"" wah request kemain.

Exam Law HARI ISNIN WEYH! TAK BACA PAPE WEYH. DA ARI KAMES!!

HUAAAAAAAARGGHHH!!

Kawan prp da baca, da bercolor-color buku, aku pulak baru ambek buku law dari atirah, cantek woh dalam plastic!

Next step, call haifa, mengadu nasib. memang masa zaman university pun selalu call dia "Aifa da baca sampai mana?" Tak sangka kerja masih contact dia dengan dialog yang sama. macam dejavu.

Planning baik dibuat time driving, aifa nak tido umah saya weekend, study sama-sama.

Planning macam plan yang sangat bagus dan bunyi macam mantap, dengan ayat yang bermula dengan

"ok macam ni su.. ookkk.. (plan A-Z, selak buku pun belum, apa lagi nak nampak huruf A).... kita mesti boleh.. pasti pas punya la... "

*Separuh nafas kembali semula .. ZZzzz *

*malam ni tak dapat nak buat, settle kan kerja lain dulu, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz"

*besok my friend kerja separuh hari utk study*

*me? maximum study time only 2 hari 1 malam tolak tido == ???? *

*Finger Cross*

Weekend. Some sweet. some turned me into shriek.

2010-11-15T01:16:00.003+08:00

Sabtu : Plan ingin pulang ke Kluang. Tapi mama kata diorang takde kat Kluang. Maka postpone. Boleh la jumpa kawan-kawan yang dirindui nih. Syaza turun dari sarawak. Shepah dari Ipoh. Lepastu shopping tak hengat. Semua baju nak kaut. Aku je penjimat. Suggest makan pon kat foodcourt je. Orang shopping baju, ku tak shopping pun, memang bangga tak de nafsu nak shopping. Pastu lalu depan metro jaya, Fondan tu spray perfume Incanto, terus 245 aku melayang. ='( rasa menyesal tak berjaya tahan duet keluar. Padahal da ada perfume kat rumah. ='(

Nampak semua baik je ikut makan foodcourt.

Bagus mereka ni kumpul duet nak beli kereta yang best-best je.

Aku? Tak pelah. aku xmau fokus kat kereta. Viva tu cukup la . Hiks.

Bukan saya amek gambar aifa separuh. Muka haifa memang separuh tu je kalau tengok live pon.

Lepastu aku ingat duet aku da selamat kat foodcourt, Rupanya Syaza da tunggu ngan kek dia yang a slice RM15 kat alexis the garden. Mula-mula malas layan, kek diorang minat gila ah. Tapi saya biasa je. Bila order pizzaa.. HAAA.. amek la. memang aku datang lagi makan kat sini nanti. Nape sedap sangat ntah. SUKA NYAAAA!!

Murah je. tak lebih RM 50 regular size. Cedap2.. kalau nak dua topping, dia boleh buat kan separuh lain, separuh lain. Hiks.. nak datang laagii.. cedapp yang seafood ni..

Kitorang jumpa kol 1 tengahari, kol 2 pagi baru balek. Anyway sangat gembira jumpa diorang. Tak penah happy cam arini since abes belajar. They completed my day. but someone is missing. Shaboo, in JB. We miss you more than you miss us. ='( Come to KL ok...

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Shriek's story

Da dapat I phone ni. malas nak cerita panjang camne aku berjaya dapat kan. apple ok. yang tak ok maxis sri kembangan. just... aku sangat marah, sampai aku cakap fuck fuck kat dealer tu. Sangat marah, sebab dia cuti aku 5 hari jadi 3 hari kat kluang ni. bila aku da maki, rupanya dia boleh je buat kerja cepat. maksudnya dia boleh activate kan sim aku ari sabtu. dia buat kan aku balek, and tunggu simcard aku activated sampai lebih dari 24 jam. dia kata akan activate kan simcard aku kol 4 5 petang ahad. padahal activate kan boleh less than it. Memang kena la aku maki. dia tak nak kalah, dia kata memang system . lepas aku maki, terus simcard aku 1 jam pastu activated. nampak tak dia buang masa aku. boleh je dia settle kan aritu. Sebab dia, aku balek kluang kol 7 malam ahad. aku sangat marah ngan orang malas buat kerja. ari sabtu aku biar agi, sebab aku ada kawan2, aku fikir time kuar tu, mungkin da activate tym tu. so sok pagi pun leyh settle kan ngan apple. aku bangun pagi ahad, ingat ke line hp prepaid aku da tak de ke apa. ada lagi. camne aku nak balek kluang kalau simcard prepaid aku da mati ke kan after 4 5, simcard i phone yang kecik tu boleh sumbat dalam tepon biasa aku la plak kan? menyusahkan betol.

LawZzZZzzZZ

2010-11-10T00:48:00.000+08:00

This is my friends, sandeep and athira.We attended ceramah perundangan for 2 days, for the sake of forensic exam on this 22nd nov.

This is the book.

We tried to focusss... but.............. it just sound like bedtime story..

Gaining some good friends.

2010-11-07T02:17:00.005+08:00

Sekarang saya sudah bertukar ke ward, dimana perlu mengikut doctor round pagi-pagi bersama housemen. Setakat ni, boss besar saya ada lagi, jadi doctor nak bincang sila la bincang dengan boss saya dulu ye, saya boleh dijumpai dikalangan housemen-housemen, sebab sampai sekarang saya tak perkenalkan diri lagi, lepastu bila specialist tanya housemen-housemen, ha'aa.. ngan aku-aku dia tanya soalan doctor sekali, padahal aku bukan doctor pun, Kui kui, aku lagi rela tak ngaku pharmacist. takut aku dia tanya dose ke apa ntah nanti. malu mak. HAHAHAHA.

Masa 1st day masuk ward, boss xde, so aku sekor-sekor pharmacist kat situ, pastu aku blank nak wat apa, padahal kena ikut doctor round, pastu nampak ah doctor round ngan housemen2 dia, aku wat bodo tak nak join, MALU AH. tiba-tiba ada kat situ, seme doctor, saya je pharmacist, tak kenal sape pun, terus turun balek pharmacy. Mesej my friend " I xnak a follow blahh blaahhh, u bila nak jaga ward cn, i xde kawaaan, pat a tukar ward ni, blah2".. the doctor replied " relax su, join je ward round tu, doctor takkan marah pharmacist,, if tak tau cakap not sure, and gonna check it now, or you can just text me here ok?''..

Ha itu kawan saya, nama dia doctor A.. dia kawan doctor saya yang saya baik sekarang, then kalau nak pergi tukar dose, kalau da jadi kan kawan, senang, dia nampak muka kita teruss "ha mana dose salah, mana-manaa,," terus semua dia tukar kan, senang kerja aku tak yah cakap banyaaak.

Tu 2 my friend tu ward 3 and ward 2, ward yang aku masuk tak de kawan lagi, jadi i make friend ngan doctor H pulak, ha ni lagi best, aku kat medical record pun tanya soalan terus dia datang kat medical record tolong aku wat kerja, masa ward round, specialist explain2 doctor H, explain kat aku plak untuk semua katil, macam heaven nya kalau ada kawan, lepastu "eyp su apa dose ni su?." nikmat tau kerjasama.

Lepastu buat kerja kat rumah pun, dulu buat kerja asyik theory jee. sekarang I text je doctor, whats your opininion.. blaahh blaaah, but this, but that.. then kita belajar, atau kita membantu dia pergi membetulkan apa yang mereka tak perasan masa practice. You ajar I antibiotic.. blahh blaaahh, senang wa baca dari hp je.. then terus google, focus and apply kan apa yang dia practice ngan theory.

So for now, saya da mula cinta sedikit environment disini. kena pandai cari kawan, baru lah menjadi hidup kau. Tapi i suka Housemen-housemen sini, baik dan tak sombong.

Tapi kawan yang ini, paling sentiasa bersama. kemana sahaja. Atirah.

The only pharmacist yang I rapat.

Ok gambar seterusnya hanyalah gambar yang aku tak dapat nak kaitkan dengan jalan cerita, kenapa blog aku macam hape hape pun aku tak tau. ok bye.

Ni adalah wajah yang penat bekerja siang, tapi malam ada hati nak jumpa BF, padahal mata tak boleh bukak.

Wajah cover line untuk berposing seketika diwaktu bekerja

Aiman turns 3

2010-10-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I went to Kak Long's House at Klang to celebrate the Aiman's Birthday, Woke up because of a call from Aiman, so took shower, and pulled off to Klang, stopped off at Jusco Bukit Tinggi, Klang to get him a present. Bought him an electronic book i guess, with music, and blah-blah, but the person inside the book always failed to finish her sentence when Aiman kept punching the button, and lesson not learnt yet. From A to Z, Aiman only can get " Hello little bookkeemm" "bye byee bookkeeemm".. (Bookem = bookworm.) Then, for the P, got Pig picture la, and the Kak Long was like, alaa, ada pig..... Apparently, Aiman became excited to press the P button.. Then the sounds was like.. " P for PIG.. KHROOOKKHRRROOK"... Aiman kept pressing and pressing and laughing. No picture for the book. Forgot to take. Only have nephew's picture.

Aiman's Cake.

Mr. Aiman.

Aiman kissing Mak da..

Kissing Mak da, turned him into Ultraman.

Yeah. I asked him

Mak da : Aiman ikut atok pergi marhaban ke masa kat rumah atok? camne man lagu marhaban, cuba nyanyi.

Aiman : Aiman tak tau. Aiman tau lagu ultraman je.

Ini Muhammad Aqil yang selalu buat aku ketap bibir . He called me AIDA. not mak da ye.. Because aiman start with AI.. so my name also he put AI infront. =/

Gambar satu, Aqil menaiki basikal.

Gambar 2, basikal dirampas oleh Aiman, ala ciaaan adeeek. hehe. Kak teh, go get him a bicycle . hehe.

At 1, sunday, i went back to Kajang.

While i was having my lunch at Kak Long's house, kak long's and her husband were listing their groceries,

Husband : beli apa lagi? gula ?gaaaraaam?? lagi??

Aiman : Beli KOKOK (rokok)

The new stamp

2010-10-23T00:58:00.005+08:00

Today i got a new cop (stamp). Hoping to replace the fat cop that seriously make my pocket look bulky and its space-consuming. So, here my new cop, the pink one, the lame blue one is the free cop from the office, but according to abang kedai, the blue one is better quality compared to pink stamp. Anyway, i Lioke the small one, only for this case ok. : P

The blue stamp is without the university name, the pink one i added the university name la.
(previously i didnt know what to write on the paper for the blue stamp, then I saw people put their university, look better, so the new one should add this)

But actually im so scared putting the UM on it.

Because, haaih. high expectation, Like previously, you from UM arent you? i know you can do this.

If im stupid or what im scared people will said, haih, No quality la this UM student.

Just the name only.

Like haih, to use or not to use. Hihi.

Anyway, im proud im from UM, but not sure if i can make the University proud of a student like me.

LIKE HELL NO.

Dont make people downgrade the UM because of you ha susu.

HAHA.
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One day, aku ada nak down siket pasal satu case ni, like, ah malas nak cerita, kalau hari-hari ada je benda, makin lama telinga aku da jadi telinga kuali dah, tapi sebenarnya hati terasa gak kalau orang tegur kasar-kasar, rasa macam nak mengamuk, tapi sekarang da cool siket. Pastu masa clerk case, ada la tukar cerita dengan housemen (doctor).. blah2.. dia cakap "biasa la tu, we all here learn from mistake".. Then i realize that, yang time belajar, lecturer ajar satu-satu, time kerja, orang tak kan ajar kau , dia cuma cakap, pergi buat ni, buat tu, tang tung tang tung, kau tinggal sorang, nak mintak ajar orang ni, orang ni busy, orang tu busy, lepastu bila kau wat salah, ha time tu la diorang datang ramai menuding jari. SO SEBENARNYA TU LA CARA BELAJAR MASA KAU KERJA. KAU BELAJAR MELALUI SILAP KAU BUAT. Jadi, hati kena belajar jadi keras, tapi balek nak ngamuk, ngamuk kat member, member pulak turn dia kutuk kutuk kutuk, ok puas dua dua, hati pun tidak bengkak lagi, sebab ada orang yang paham dan mengalami situasi yang sama, kawan yang ada master pun merasa begitu juga. Jadi, saya rasa saya tidak merasa bodoh bersendirian, tapi bodoh secara berkumpulan. Maka pressure itu kurang sudah. I ajar you ABC, HEY DEF YOU FIKIR LA SENDIRI, TAKKAN NAK SUAP YOU SEBIJI SEBIJI NASI!

The Fri-satur-day.

2010-10-17T03:15:00.003+08:00

Kalau jadi PRP mesti kena ada satu kawan baik, yang lepas kerja, boleh lepak sekejap untuk meluah perasaan. Saya ada satu kawan yang saya da mula rasa sayang. ceh. gitu. Bila rehat je panggil Tira, balek cari Tira, semua pun nak cari Tira, kalau tak de Tira, rasa macam lain macam. ohokohok.

Saya memang kalau orang yang baru saya kenal, saya tak suka cakap Aku kau, saya suka cakap saya awak lah, I-U, or bahasa kan nama. Masa makan ngan dia, dia cakap, dia tak suka orang bawah umur dia bahasa kan diri kau aku kat dia, nasib baik aku panggil Tira su je.. dia tua setahun, SEBAB DIA BUAT MASTER DULU. patot sandeep kata dia pandai. lepastu soalan pegawai tanya I, I tak dapat jawab dengan tepat, tanya senior, senior pun jawapan sama cam I, semua orang jawapan sama dengan I, cuma Tira je bagi jawapan yang menarik semalam, aku antibiotik memang tak lepas mana aaah kan, Tira boleh explain secara practical nya kat aku. AKU MACAM WOAAH.. hebat perempuan ni.

Semalam pas kerja, makan pizza ngan dia, and pergi karaoke, melayang 60 ringgit satu malam aku. terus lunch maggi je harini. Seronok kawan ngan Tira, dia sporting, happy go lucky, dia je kot setakat ni yang macam rapat ngan saya and saya selesa.

Ni la kawan saya kat tempat kerja.

Balik kerja terus pergi karaoke, kau belom rasa macamana puas dia, semua maki hamun dan tension boleh dilepaskan disini, sebab tahap tension dengar suara sendiri yang macam lahabau lebih hebat dari tekanan di tempat kerja. Maka kerja itu bersamaan tidak tension langsung. Pukul 11 lebih balik, memang balon habes da ni, sebab weekend nak buat kerja.

Kerja apa?

Leaflet Filing.

Thanks to Azziera Hashim yang tidak membantutkan niat untuk tidur di rumah aku, apabila diselitkan permintaan pertolongan pengguntingan dan penggamman kertas.

The file is 99.9% done.

Im so happy. Satisfied.
Yang label buruk dulu da selamat masuk tong sampah ye.

Pain and gain.

2010-10-15T01:06:00.004+08:00

ONE

Pharmacist Assistant (PA) : Su, kau pulak cek troli. aku penat. Ceh selamba aku suruh.

Pharmacist : haha. Suhaida suka kena buli tak suhaida?

Suhaida : (senyum busuk, tak tau nak jawab pe).

Pharmacist : Kena buli akan buat kamu jadi lebih kuat, tapi Suhaida sudah improve , Suhaida sudah buat kerja dengan laju.

At last, ada jugak benda yang boleh menyenangkan hati aku hari ini, to feel appreciated. Selalu, Suhaidaa!! Faster!! too slowwww! (aku dose pun tak hafal lagi, susun letak ubat tak hafal lagi, nak laju macam mana ntah, kalau aku laju2, salah, Suhaida! you cannot make mistake anymore!, aku rela slow sambil menghafal dose. Kadang-kadang, suhaida pergi ward tanya semua prescription ni, confirm kan dose, 11.45 you must be here, aku tengok jam 11.40, tak macam. ZZzz.. tapi aku balek 11.50, lambat 5 minit, tapi masih, Good suhaida. To gain something, you need to feel the pain first. even its pain to hear their tohmahan, but everything is for my own good, yeah human being, sometimes cant bear lah, but at least, Im improving. Thank God.)

Pharmacist B : Suhaida, bila mau kerja malam dengan kami lagi, pharmacist A kata kamu sudah pandai buat kerja, waah.. hasil didikan kami berdua ni, HHAHAHA..

Dalam hati, Ha'a, meroyan aku balek rumah, tapi bila da improve, rasa sayang pulak kat diorang. hehe.

TWO

My undone task now.

1) Proposal

2) Article (will be passed to another hospital, kena cantik-cantik, selagi tak ok, selagi tu dia pulangkan soh betulkan).

3) Leaflet Filing (yang tak de leaflet, kena cari kan tenet, kena compress la jadi 1-2 pages la kan, time consuming, index and labelling aku buat tak cantik (penat aku stay up sampai 5 pagi gunting-gunting) dia suruh tukar. )

4) Clerk Case.

Tapi balek da kol 10. Bila aku nak buat ntah, harapkan weekend je. Bila aku plan nak balek awal, ada je benda melintas, all prp, you nampak semua file tu, buat index, sorang 5 file, su, nak indent ubat la, tet tet tet tet, aku mengira tablet, besok nak pergi medical record clerk case, baru nak start clerk ni, Su, esok pagi boleh bancuh morphine tak, stock lama kita tak nak guna, kena buat stock baru, aku cammmm.. (AAAAARRGGGHHHH!!!) why the four above are not proggressing yettt!.

THREE

Shantini : You dengan bf you ok su?

Su : Blah Blah Blah.

Shantini : Aku sepak kau kang su (haha aku cam nak gelak).

Su : Dont know la, im tension with the work, so cant see what i want.

Shantini : I can see you are rebellious type.

Su : HAAHAHA.why you said like that ( padahal da tau sendiri aku jenis pemberontak, bf pun da banyak kali tanya apa masalah, berontak apa ni? ha ? ha? )

Shantini : you everytime you handle dangerous drug (DD), muka you tension gila, so, kalau stock DD i habes, i nak kena indent ngan you, I fikir banyak kali (OMG aku nak kena indent ngan budak su ni pulak)..

Su : Haha. ( No wonder bila dia nak indent DD, penuh berhemah, its ok su, i dont force you to do it tonight, you can go back, do it tomorrow).

Shantini : Bila aku order kau wat something, kau terus kerut dahi, NAK MALAM NI KE? BANYAK KE? URGENT KE?

YEK AH. INDENT 700 BIJI PILL, 300 PILL, kalau yang dalam blister ku tenang siket nak bagi, yang kena kira satu satu sebanyak 300, wa panas beb panas. HAHA. tadi pun kol 9 balek stock in DD, issue DD utk shantini, tu pun, tulang aku nak reppuutt ddaahh!! lagi 2 minggu je pegang DD! tolong la jangan ilang sebijik pun!

Nauseated.

2010-10-12T21:16:00.002+08:00

Tadi ada nurse call cakap patient dia nak discharge dah, family pun dah ada, bila nak counsell. aku dah, 'patient mana pulak ni, tak hantar borang pun..".. pastu pegawai tanya, I cakap tak de pun patient ni punya borang. tak de tak de...

Pastu I pergi counsell patient lain time petang, kat ward patient yang nak discharge tu, pastu nurse datang, "ha pharmacist, patient nak discharge da tu, family pun dah ada..".. pastu aku cakap la, borang pun tak bagi, camane, nurse kata "semalam da kasi da".. pastu dia datang lagi, bawak borang baru, dengan file katil tu.. AKU TERUS! OMG! THIS PATIENT!.

Me : eh semalam i dah pass dekat pharmacist lain, dia tak faham BM, so how i nak counsell dia? kenapa nak counsell lagi sekali? (bercampur dengan alasan tu sebenarnya)

Pastu nurse tu tunjuk file tu, note from pharmacist. ending dia " TO BE COUNSELLED AGAIN"..

aku dah.. "I'LL KILL YOU SHANTINI!".. (my friend yang i pass counsell semalam)..

Kenapa aku tak nak patient ni?

Sebab.. haih.. sebab.. dia tak faham melayu, lepastu masa aku counsell tu, ada husband dia, lepastu i suruh husband dia translate kan.. lepastu husband dia ada airliur pekat yang tergantung, and berakhir dengan tebal nya di hujung bibir (ok nak termuntah sekarang). Lepastu aku cakap ngan hubby dia, aku pandang muka patient je.. tapi kadang2 kena pandang jugak la dia siket. aku memang da tahap loya.. pastu sabar lagi.. sabar su sabar, jangan muntah kat sini, control2.. ok continue lagi..

Ok sekarang masukkan pump tu dalam mulut auntie, tutup rapat ok..

auntie tu pun bukak mulut.. YA ALLAH. AIR LIUR DIA SAMA NGAN SUAMI DIA, TEBAL DAN BERGETAH DAN PUTIH! aku da loyaaa! nak cerita ni pun da kembang tekak aku.. Pastu aku tahan lagi, dah auntie tu pulak jenis yang susah nak ajar, banyak kali ajar, banyak kali dia guna style dia je. pastu aku terpaksa tengok air liur dia la, pastu ada student nursing yang tengah tengok aku counsell, aku tak kira la, aku kenal tak kenal, aku luah kan jugak sambil gaya nak muntah cakap, "saya tak boleh la,air liur dia tergantung".. pastu aku call shantini, dengan alasan kukuh auntie tu tak paham melayu...

Pastu aku terus lari keluar la, time tu mata berair, tangan kibas-kibas muka, aku tak perasan if aku terbueekk buekk ke apa ke. tapi aku yakin aku tahan masa dalam ward, keluar je ward, kat tangga, haaa.. BUEEK BUEEKK BUEEEKK BUEEEEK.. aku bueek buek tu sampai la shantini sampai kat ward, shantini da "OMG SUHAIDA, SO BAD, WHY AH THE PATIENT".. "AIR LIUR DIA PEKAT AND TERGANTUNG, I TAK BOLEH I TAK BOLEH".. Shantini da blah pun, aku terbuek buek sorang-sorang, siap da terkeluar isi muntah aku..

LEPASTU SHANTINI BOLEH TULIS TO BE RECOUNSELLED KAN?

Tak macam lemah lutut aku nak pergi katil auntie tu, tapi aku da plan da, nak suruh auntie tu minum air dulu, tapi harini dia tak de air liur sangat, sib baik suami dia tak datang! kalau tak! aku tak tau kat mana aku muntah tadi.

(tapi sebenarnya shantini kata dia yang nak counsell, tapi da patient nak discharge kena la cepat, ne aku tau shantini nak counsell, tapi xpe, da lepas)..

KAN? THATS WHY AKU TAK NAK JADI DOKTOR.

Sebab, masuk ward pun aku tahan nafas, kalau tiba2 aritu bau ubat kuat, mula la loya tekak aku, tak macam mintak pelempang? Kalau patient khakk khakk ptuihh buang kahak, tak macam bulat mata aku telan airliur.

Boleh la tengok bil electric I ye. 0.00 sen yee.. HAHAHA..
Da kalau hidup aku kat hospital je. mana tak nye. HAHA

Konon tenang

2010-10-12T00:33:00.001+08:00

Ahad da dapat my cure, the cousins sleptover at my house, karaoke-ing, hot-&-roll-ing, coolblogging, then after magreb went to Kelana Jaya with my only dude to have the William's Spaghetti Bolognese , memorizing the Jalan to his house, actually dia da tunjuk banyak kali, tapi mesti ingat setakat Airport Subang je, pastu lupa dah mana, hehe. So, dia tunjuk again la, hehe, nampak sangat da tak larat nak gi Kajang, ye la, bila dia tak larat, i gi subang la. .. ye la, fair la, fair la...

Ok, ahad tu da cukup buat aku tak lemau pergi kerja, hari ni was a good day, aku lebih tenang, walaupun hakikat nya aku kehulu-kehilir, tapi aku buat layan je, PRP lain ada gak merungut, tapi aku cakap " Su dah tak larat da merungut Tira, tak tau la, banyak sangat kerja nak buat time balek rumah, su nak buat je mana yang su mampu, kalau tak boleh, maksudnya tak boleh la tu, sekarang ni su layan kan je la".. Yela nak fikir banyak-banyak pun, tak boleh buat apa jugak, settle tetap kena settle kan, walaupun rasa macam kenapa macam tak bertimbang rasa semua orang nak bagi tugas ni, berapa banyak kepala ni, tau tak saya ada 24 jam, saya balik kerja malam, bila saya nak buat semua kerja tu.. bilaaa? ok nobody listen. Yang mereka tahu, saya punya ni da siap? itu da siap? ini da siap? takpelah, mungkin time diorang PRP pun kena camtu, so not fair la kalau kami boleh relax.

So, balik pukul 8: 30, then pergi kedai buku, beli kotak nak letak file-file, then pergi makan sorang-sorang kat mamak. mamak Ayza's kat belakang metro point sedap. The only mamak yang aku akan tengok meja sebelah makan apa, sok nak try tu plak, sok nak ni pulak, kenapa semua sedap ntah, nan-cheese siap tabur cheese atas roti, mana wa tak geram dia punya sedap. Ayam tandoori yang aku tak suka pun, aku da suka, semua aku tak suka, aku suka! tiap-tiap ari nak mamak Ayza tu lah. Hehe.

Pastu pukul 9.45 balek makan, start engine, engine tak boleh hidup, apa lagi lah kan, buat-buat tenang la demi tak merosakkan hari yang konon tenang, call manager apartment, JAMES! dia la datang ngan kawan dia charge kan battery, bila pomen dah blah , aku pun hidup kan lampu kereta. Fine. tak boleh start lagi. (before pomen blah da press-press minyak da, boleh je, cuma bila bukak lampu, dia padam).. last-last tinggal kat satu tempat tu.. (tak leyh gtau! t ada yang datang pecah, cesh).. hehe. Pastu da masuk kereta kawan James, i tanya "eh i tinggal kereta tu tak de apa-apa ke" "kamu sembahyang kuat siket la kereta kamu tak de apa-apa, ala kalau dia mahu curi kereta kamu pun, mana ada baterry mau gerak, dia kena beli battery dulu la). hehe. a'ah ye besok jangan stereng aku ilang, tayar da tukar tayar basikal ke apa lah!

So, besok Tira tolong amek pergi kerja, duet da bagi kat James untuk tukar battery baru, before lunch James kata akan settle kan. Then lunch I amek my car la dekat apartment. Hem. Duet aku makin nipis! Nipis! tak de duet!

Never stop crawling until you know how to stand and run.

2010-10-09T12:18:00.011+08:00

Hey its weekend people. or Weak-end here. Just that, i'm sorry for serving you with the emotional post lately. But its a good place to pour the feeling when at least somebody understand and listen to me. Because i'm living in the not so joyful place, friend only at work, out of work, nobody available. Maybe thats the thing.

Living on my own make me more independent. Having my own money make me more calculative in buying thing. Sometimes i feel like calling my daddy to topup for me. Then remember, oh im working already, i need to give them money now. Behehe. Then, it makes me more organize, like waking up, thinking of what should i do first, honestly, previously im a person who directly get up from bed, eat, shower, and settle my school work, and dont like people to kacau me with chores. I think its time wasting, like hey why dont you hire a maid. Thats why my previous roomate tegur me like, "Ya Allah su, balek makan terus bukak buku".. Im like that, when im into something, my mind is there, and sometimes i think eating is time-wasting because i eat real slow, and its wasting my time. Thats why im getting skinner during the school time.

So, today i woke up i straightly think i need to rush, i need to settle side task for my work, oh the filing, the proposal, oh the house rent, the broadband, the X-Y-Z. So, I calmed down, organized my mind set, settle yourself first, because work never settle. Because nobody going to settle yourself for you. The house, the car, the appearance potray your personality, and yeah the first impression. And im working on that.

And, living in a house, with white and clean wall, sometimes is unbearable, i need more stuff in this house, and im thinking where to get the money. haih. Life aint easy as previous where you got your mummy and daddy to call up to bank in the money.

And the other goodside of living on my own is, whenever i go, whatever difficulties im facing, the only thing come into my mind, is God, always God, and just so many times i realized that, there's nobody can be with you all the time, there's nobody can understand you without you opening your mouth. There is only God, that listen to you, easiest your life everyday.

Breakdown day.

2010-10-07T23:30:00.003+08:00

Today was my breakdown day, usually i can stand whatever shit. but today was just too much, like bombarded with this and that. For the sake of confirmation being scolded, for the sake of understanding, being yelled. Here and there. There's something wrong with the culture and system. Or maybe its me. So pressure today, till i need to tell myself, dont drop your tears in this place. Dont embarrass yourself here. Dont show you affected by them. I like the self ego. Looked at the clock, just 11 am , looked at the clock again 1pm, grabbed the bag, ran to the car, hold the tears, just when the head get into the car, i sobbed, sped to home, drove like crazy people, called the unfortunate boyfie, cried on phone. Rest 45 minutes at home, relaxed my mind, came back again to work, saw the bombarding-person, smiled at her/him. Im okay dude/babe. Went to ward, the senior PRP met one of the doctor that included in my miserable day, "hey you, why you marah my staff on the phone. blah-blah" (He gave the wrong dose, i called up he talked to me like Azwan Laser style, said he wrote the correct dose, and said me something like buta or what). In the room bombarded with different person, on the phone, got somebody else scolded me, for his mistake, scold me. But face to face, the doctor apologize to me, said he was tension, hey everybody tension, why being rude to people. Completed the day, when the Pharmacist assistant (senior) scolded me when i forgot to give the paper to him/her after calling the doctor. Just that, got so many things in my mind, pressured, and for the sake of a paper, you scold me, yeah everybody completed my day. Tonight, i feel so weak, and i hate to go to work, what else man, what else. Its ok to scold me for the thing i can find in a book, but its not ok for me for the things that need experience to settle it. Were you that clever during your PRP time? I bet you not. I need break, i need my family, i need my friends, the cousins. I need the strength. God lend me yours.

The Nephews got new cousin. Behehee..

2010-10-06T22:24:00.003+08:00

Hi Darwisy, My name is Atomen codomossh !

Hey dawish piyash.. My name is Kokomen!

Ek ek ekk Ekk.. Eyp you Darwish. Im the Atomen-in-the-making.

Err.. shedawe shaye cemua lelaki ke.

Hai cemua Im Muhammad Darwisy Firas b. Mohd faiz

Mak Ida's New Obsession.

Stop Zooming my photo Mak Ida. Behehe.

Pessimism

2010-10-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

Tadi masa counsell patient asthma, patient ICU, sangat rare patient ICU mintak counselling inhaler. Aku pun pergi lah. pastu aku tengok dia dalam BILIK SARINGAN, aku cam " Haih kenapa patient ni dalam bilik infectious disease ni nurse?".. pastu aku tengok orang kat dalam tu tak pakai mask pun. " Saya kena pakai mask la ni kan nurse?".. Eh tak payah pun tak pe.. "oh tapi nape dia dalam bilik ni?" " oh dia sakit obstructive blah-blah-blah.. ".. Oh.. sambung lagi " yang mungkin ada H1N1".. " La camni saya kena pakai mask la ni".. "ha yela yela pakai la"..

Tak kira suspek ke apa ke, nak pakai mask jugak! seb baik aku godek-godek. sedangkan cafe yang bina dalam bangunan hospital pun aku tak lalu makan, lagi nak macamni nya kes. My lecturer pernah cakap, kalau tak ada apa-apa hal, jangan masuk hospital, tempat paling banyak kuman.

Then, pergi ward biasa, patient tu kat katil biasa, bukan dalam bilik saringan ke apa. open air punya. Aku pun.. "hembuss duluu.." "ok tarik nafass... ok tahan nafass".. blah blah. Pastu da abes counsell, isi borang, em, ni saket apa ye (malas nak check profile ).. Patient " batok berdarah" aku dalam hati cam, astaghfirullahalazim. Asal tak cakap! kenapa hubby dia tak pakai mask, nape nurse tak pakai mask! haih! tak suka!

Pastu biasa lah, sebab aku ni pessimist, moody terus, ngadu kat tira, kat melanie, camne nie I da pegang Inhaler dia tadi, i tak tau la kalau I terpegang inhaler part mulut dia ke apa, pastu kesat-kesat hidung, mulut ke..

Jawapan nurse : ala dia just suspect je, belum tau lagi, TO RULE OUT. Kalau awak risau jangkit, kitorang yang hari-hari mengadap ni macam mana la kan? ( konon cam tak risau)

Me : Ya la, tapi pekerja hospital la yang banyak kena TB nurse.

Nurse : hem tu la...

Tira and pharmacist : Tak de apa la, kalau antibody kita kuat, kita tak jangkit punya la, jarang first exposure terus jangkit, so, you amek multivitamin la banyak-banyak.

Aku cam, tak boleh, aku cepat fikir bukan-bukan, t malam tak tido, batok siket aku rasa TB, demam sakit tulang, suspect H1N1. haha. damn.

Pastu aku nak gi amek multivitamin, mak aih besar nya! tak jadi aku amek! kalau aku terlekat sorang-sorang kat umah cane! (nama je pharmacist, MULTIVITAMIN SYRUP PAKAI SYRINGE BOLEH TAK !!)

Age : 2 tahun 3 bulan, berat 42 microgram!